sigh.it's always the same isnt it.everything just goes the way it goes.went to school today and just had school.had the record number of hours of chinese.it's crazy they way they try to prepare u for chinese o's.siao one.sigh.nothing can go right.only things with God can.at least now.im praying that some things will just start falling into place again.and like things will be sorted.and that decisions that i make will be God's choice.and that God will start to let things fall in place too.and help me make them fall in place.everything is just so irritatingly wrong.argh.ok.anyway,i had musical prac today.i find much happiness in this i guess.yeah.then jemma and i went like seriously high.took our guit picks,then i went "dun PICK a fight with me now"and then we started laughing so much.and then like we were just laughing and laughing.i think we are the most slack instrument.someone took my place playing the synth.whaha!i CMI la.lousy counter and piano player.and then we made up this band bowing thingy while standing outside the audi waiting for it to be open.we were seriously high lor.the whole band.my goodness.we're mad man.they learnt this ultimate jazz song today.quite nice.then jemma and i were like dancing to it.i think the teachers sitting in thought we were seriously nuts.and finally,we have like nearly the whole of strings.including a cellist.wha.finally all turning up huh.after like HOW many pracs of absence.i think the rhythm section has the best attendance.haha!but anyway,yeah.today's prac was fun.im gonna borrow jun's guit for sat's prac.see how it goes.haha.it should go very well since it's such a nice guit.haha!yups.and yeah.wha.we have four keyboardist now.and if u look on the stage from the audience,and look at the drummer and four keyboardist and strings,wha,we look super pro lor.really supersupersuper pro.the keyboardist look so wha,aiyarh.dunno how to say.wei feng?pro la.super cooooool...esp when they are playing jazz.we sound like some pub larh.a really big one.hah!yeah.but i think we sound better than that dun we.ahwells.looking forward to sat's prac.we have a new song to learn.woohoo,we actually have like 8 more songs to go.wha.die.and my fingers.hmmms.arh.they are horrible.they are like peeling.and just peeling.so crap.my fingers dun harden.they peel.making them ugly.who'd notice anyway.and they hurt so much after prac if i dun play anymore.like how much they are hurting now.arh.but who cares anyway.i gotta prac my violin tmw.do some chinese.and also just play guit.if not my fingers might die on sat again or something.aiyarh.i dun care if they bleed la.i just pity the poor guit.my baby finger is just dying alr.peeling and peeling.like i got so much skin or something.anyway.im not going to school tmw.gonna sleep in la.sleep late and sleep in.shoik.just sleep and sleep.im such a pig.oink.whaha!oh.i can play april showers alr ry.hah.ok la.not really i guess.must learn to play the guit solo.haha!and then today jemma taught me some songs.the chord super easy and so repetitive.but it's soo fun to play together cos like she'll sing then i play then we'll be repeating and all.haha!so stupid.anyway,im talking nonsense la.i dun have better things to do nowadays and spend most of my time on the comp.rubbish la.i could be doing more productive and better things.making use of more of my time.sheesh.but i just spend time on the comp.cos i dun have better things to do la.aiyarh.ok la.im gonna log off,go and do some QT and maybe study a bit here and there till i sleep la.

i would jump if i knew you'd catch me.

tc.:)