yesterday went to glori's house for lvl4 class party!yay!was quite funny.we started off with cheaper by a dozen,then we had lunch b4 playing guesstures and then four on a couch!yay!the girls rule man!haha!anyway,we started just nuahing b4 some pple went home and then we watch 13 going on 30.thanks glori and her mum for such good food!
man...i love ting so much.she came all the way with me to jelita to buy tickets for aladdin when it was pouring.love u gurl...but anw,on the way to the bus stop i got all wet.and it's not funny when your toes are freezing in the bus cos of wet socks.yuuucks.so anw,we got to jelita but not before realising that 77 dint turn and we had to walk quite a distance.went to buy the tickets and then went to walk arnd in jelita.nothing much.but good enough.we spent quite sometime in times bkshop just reading and hanging arnd.so anyway,when we got out of jelita,we waited for the bus.then when we alighted at shell,i suddenly went nuts and mad trying to rhyme everything we said.haha!it was hilarious lar.i think alot of pple were staring at us both laughing like idiots.haha!so anw,i got home then went out with my family for dinner at jumbo again.seafood.bleax.i hope i don't get an allergic reaction.so anw,17 days.heh.and i STILL haven't started. *tng starts pulling hair* i dunno where to start.

true love has no happy endings,true love has no ending.

yay!today was super fun!outing with the three t's rock.haha!we were so high and everything.first,i woke up reeeallly late this morning even tho i slept reeeallly early.but anyway,i had lunch and blahblah then ting came over to play pool for a while b4 we left to meet tee at cine.had BK for dinner there.then ting and i were laughing about the stupid onion rings,altho i'm not sure why now,then tee came.we went upstairs to use the 8beam machine.then i was blamed that the machine was bad!well,sorry lah.it's the ONLY one that i know how to use.bleax.heh.so anyway,after doing that,we went to bits and pieces and we got our 3ts rings that we all lost.we're amazing eh.get it together and lose it together.whaha.it's ur christmas presents hor tee and ting.hehe.then cos we dint like the 8 beam neos,we went to heeren to take summore.not b4 stopping at the mini bits shop where tee started going on about winter sonata and bae yong jun.siggghhh.and then for some reason,everything that we saw went to bae yong jun.but anyway,we took really funny prints then went to taka.whaha.it was quite funny cos sometimes in the middle of walking,we'd stop to take a pic.haha.i think alot of pple thot we were nuts or something.haha!we went to walkwalk in taka and then we saw bae yong jun posters and tee went nuts.luckily stadium was nearby so we managed to get out of that shop quick.haha!i bought my red cap.yay!super nice.haha!then we walked summore.but i tell u,we went completely nuts.we were just high and doing all sorts of stupid things.and none of us,i just found out,can walk straight.i think if the police were there,they'd think we were under the influence of alcohol or something.haha!we were talking so much and alot of crap.haha!so stupid.haha!so nonsensical...we have to do that again one day guys.alright?it was amazingly fun.haha!anyway,just got back.so got alot of things to do.haha!yay!i've got my very organised fren to help me pack.whaha!so i can start later.

trying to make each day count.

today was super educational!haha!besides the fact that the level fours,meaning us,won tms quiz.haha!so unprepared.haha!i was running from place to place.super tiring.ahhhh...but anyway,level fours!we rock!haha!we were screaming and all that.but anyway,that's not the entire point of tms.it's to teach us to be word for word and be grounded in God's word.amen to that.anyway,i spend today out with my kors.haha!took jem's car again,to PS.we're always at PS.it was so squashy!with jem's bigbig alesis and the giant stand in that small back.bleahhh...then had lunch at pasta mania.wanted to watch a show,but ahwell.ex lar.haha!we went to sports connection and ai and i found out that guys are just as fussy when it comes to choosing bags.first it was jem then jun.haha!but anyway,those deuter humongous bags are super cool.haha!i must go get one of those one day when i decide to go on those dunno how many day hikes.yay!but anyway,jun and jem got their bags,finally.then jem and dan went home.ai,jun and i went to walk walk to centrepoint.went to timberland there to find the gortex windbreakers.wha.super cool.those at nautica also.phew.so nice.haha!but they are like hundred over.so i can forget about those for now.must show my parents that i'll actually use it.haha!but i learnt alot today about those windbreakers and all that.haha!anyway,went to coffee bean to drink and talk.then aunty alice gave me a lift home.when i got home i was super nuah.so i just sat there talking to ting for a while.was supposed to go carolling.but i was so lazy.fell asleep on the couch anyway.then went for a walk.
it was a really lovely night.moon was up and the wind was blowing.
had a good time thinking about the past year and reflecting.well,i gotta do more of that.but anyway,tmw gonna go out with sue and di.the medicine is making me drowsy already.so i shall go and try and sleep if i can.

forever and day.

it's christmas again.
time flies by like that so quickly but yet so slowly.
soon it'd be new year and then christmas again.
ok.let's not think so far yet.
ahwells.i have to make everyday left in Singapore count.
and i'm gonna do that.

merry christmas everyone!
don't forget the true meaning of christmas
cos He is the reason we live.

the greatest gift of all.

back.and sick.sigh.i don't believe i got such a bad case of hives in msia.but anyway,my trip was great.i think one week is just about nice.yeah.i was kinda getting bored.haha.i managed to meet up with vincent tho.haha.and elaine.that was good.whaha.had a good time with vince and yeevonne.went to watch without a paddle.it was SUPER funny.haha!and we cldnt be bothered to take our assigned seats cos we went in late thanks to the toilets not having any tissue paper.and there was this er.couple.don't know what they were doing in the those couple seats which i must say were really comfy.haha!and then i went christmas shopping after the show.dragged two of them along.haha!it was so last minute and everything.then we had dinner.yeah.that's about all lar.but not after laughing like crap in macs.haha!and then we went home.ok.not before saying 'thank you' to kk.ahhhh...he can drive!vince can drive n bike!ahhhh...this sucks.i thot the day wld never come when i wld have to say 'thanks for a ride' to kk.we're all growing up!ahhhh...oh and then just yesterday i went to visit xinci.eddy drove me there and guess what,shangxian her bro has grown up SO much!he's so tall and dark and goodlooking now!ahhhh...we're all growing.i just remember that it was yesterday that he was this plump,fair,short boy who played PS with me.and now he's the total opposite...can u imagine.that's just one year.if i don't see him for another year,what's gonna happen?he's gonna become angmoh arh?oh and vince has hair now!he doesnt believe that he was once bald.ahwells.anyway,i'm digressing.so anyway,we chatting till like 12am plus then i had to go back cos my uncle,grandma and mum were waiting for me to get home so they cld let the dogs out and also set the alarm and all.tt's the prob with a house.gotta get home early and the whole world will wait for you.so eddy drove me back.it was really fun catching up with old friends and all that.well,this morning,i had my last kuay teow thng.wha.tasted SUPER good.too bad dint get to drink my chinchow.nothing can beat my char kuay teow tho.which happens to be the cause of my flu.bleax.i miss my food!haha!ok.but i gotta start my exercise soon.hehe.anyway,here's something i wrote recently and yeah.enjoy i guess.

if
if you really loved me,
then how come
you never told me?

if you wanted
to be near me,how come
you never came?

if you wanted me to know,
how precious i was to you,
how come you let go?

if i really did love you then,
why did
i never tell you?

if only.

i'm no one
to anybody
no one cares
about how
i feel
only about how
they feel
it's like
i'm talking to
the wall
my breath is
like the wind
which brushes
past everyone
who walks
by me
and they
walk right
through me
cos i'm a
ghost that no
one cares for
and all
i am
is air
if i disappear
no one notices
cos no one
knows what
i really am

so who is this, me?

i've always asked myself this question.who is really me?not having an identity crisis but it's just something that boggles me.do people really love me for me?or do they just love me for what i am outside?will people care is i just disappeared?will people notice?would you take time out for me just to hear what i have to say cos i'm not exactly feeling high,but on the contary low, low, low?would you?many people said they would,but if i ever did ask them,i know they'd give me some excuse.sometimes no one cares that you care.all they care about is themselves.i do that too sometimes.i confess.but everyone in this world wants to be loved and accepted for who they are.not cos of something they do very well,but for what's inside of them.like the phantom in the opera,he's a brilliant composer and everyone fears him simply cos he's scary,but all he wanted was to be accepted into society.so that's all i want too.
i want to be loved for being me.

all i ask of you.

phew.it's been interesting.haha.i went out with mumtazah and jieling on thurs,and i realied that i missed them so MUCH!we went to watch national treasure.it's not bad a show.quite funny!haha!and then we went to take neos.everyone!be proud of me!i know how to use the 8 beam machine!haha!we took really nice neos then i had to go and ruin one.bleax.it's the time limit!ahhhh...anyway,we went to walk walk after that,and then walked jieling all the way to PS.and that's where i went to buy my boggle set!haha!i'm addicted alr.it's such a fun game!yes,i've been playing on my own...bleax.but i'm quite proud of my score.haha!yeah.anyway,i'm off for camp then to penang.get out of town,free myself for a bit.sand sea and the sky.yups,that's me.nature girl.anyhow,i'll be back again before i leave.

always,always,always and forever.

hmmms.it's been sometime.ok...let's see.where shall i start...ok...on thurs i went out with 'daddy', jo and melly!finally.after like don't know how long.we had lunch then yeah just talk and talk and talk. okk...er...on friday we went out to celebrate bang's bdae at sakae!super funny!yvonne was so ons about making orders with the computers!haha!sat there and talked for sometime.then we went ot eric's house to salivate at his guitars and equipment.right.no...bang went there to track something.but yeah.spent most of the day there then went for encounter prac.
encounter was really good.i could really feel God during the preparations and all during the encounter itself.the cry of my heart is really a song that wow.really don't know what to say.my sentiments exactly i guess.i really want to love God.it's hard sometimes.cos i really don't know what He's up to.but yeah.i can't depend on anyone but Him alone. i really can't.
ok.busy week ahead.sigh.

if i trust and hold on to your love.