Once again.

I'll be back in about 9days.

Undone.

Don't know why.

Her heart still goes jump
Brain never stops asking why how when
That fighting wanting spirit never breaks
Hope still retained
It's still a little fuzzy
And more unclear than ever
She doesn't know where
What who
Undecided and messed up
Stuck somewhere nowhere
She can't see beyond there

Shine.

That if the moon had to run away
And all the stars didn't wanna play
Don't waste the sun on a rainy day
The wind will soon blow it all away

When the days don't feel the same
Don't feel the cold or wind or rain
Everything will be okay
We'll meet again one day
And I will shine on for everyone

-Jet, Shine On.

Things to accomplish.

8. Driving License: Check.

21 at Uropa.

I'm trying to find the balance between.
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And have I ever said that small LCD screens lie. Sigh. Not a bad collection for my first attempt at using an external flash. I just need to learn to be consistent. Other than that, I love starting the day with 2hour long breakfast preparations which became lunch and then talking about the most random things. I wonder what empty chairs and empty tables will be like.
On another note, Sydney next week! Seems like quite a while away. But it'll come. Yay.

Believing.

You can see further beyond what my own eyes and heart can comprehend. Even when my head cannot rationalize anything that has happened, I know that I still can say that You are faithful always. For with You, I am stronger than me.

Like everything else.

I'm trying my best, I am.
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More about SanChurros and random walkabouts later. Did I ever mention that drama meetings make me feel very happy? Like that? -Points to the picture. Ah, God is really good.

Daddy's girl.

Dear Dad,
I'm going to keep it simple, short and sweet. No creative writing essay.
Thank you for being the bestest Daddy ever. I couldn't ask for more.
From the bottomofmyheart,
Iloveyou.

Child like faith.

And from this, we all know that the innocence of the world has not been lost.

It's Mraz again.

Just remember the telephone works both ways
If I never hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cos I'll remember everything you sang

You and I both loved

My dillemma.

Sometimes I totally feel like J.D from Scrubs.

My head tells me to do one thing, but my mouth comes out with the total opposite.

Heart or head then?

Missing messes.

So I've cleaned the room, making it look spotless, shiny, sqeeeeaky clean sorta, if my carpeted floors could glow, I reckon they would.

The parents have gone back and I am, missing them. It's sorta like they brought a piece of home with them when they were here for the 7+ weeks. I will be back on the sunny island in no time at all.

Back to cleaning up my tornado stricken messy life.

Will post photos soon.

Backlanes.

Chillax. Now.

20 at Hell[s].

Terrific night at Hells celebrating Keegan's Original and Unplugged brithday! (: It was wonderful sitting around, chatting and catching up on people's lives since we only do that once in a while. We gotta do a dinner some time folks. Yes? It was so super hanging around the tb-ers again in the little lanes we used to roam, scouting for coffee haunts and quiet little bars.

Hang out again sometime soon? Hope you had a great 20th kBow!

Note to self:

Stop being ridiculous and stop thinking. Finish the report and...
stop thinking, start working.

Doh.

I never knew that permission to enrol in a subject and an email from my tutor could bring me such joy.

Dwelling places.

When you come home
No matter how far
Run through the door
And into my arms
Where you are loved
Is where you belong
I will be here
When you come home

-Mark Schultz

Wrong side of the pole.

Losing end.

Losing it.

All you need are writer friends.

"Everybody needs a little time away / I heard you say / From each other...", the music played in a somewhat distant room.

Echoes of echoes stirring within.

And she knew as difficult as it was, it was for the best. And sometimes the best just isn't the easiest way out.

But nevertheless,

Father knows best.

-- from "And She Dreams of Paradise" by the Edditor.

Do you hear her?

She is running
A hundred miles per hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's every widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

-Casting Crowns

Backlogging.

When you take time off, it's amazing how drastically your perpective on life can change within that single hour of just being alone and watching sunset.
I'm three down, one more to go. Family time! Wooots.
Oh, one resolution this holiday is to come back with brilliant photos, of people, not just place (:

Re-Reminders.

Forsaken so that I can rejoice in Your everlasting faithfulness.

You got me through before, You can get me through again.

I know, and I believe.

Sleep cycle.

I. Shutdown
II. Sleep
III. Stirring
IV. Struggling
V. Sleep
VI. Sunshine
VII. Silence

Primary three.

I received notice yesterday from Gerry that MrsLauHaoShain or more fondly known as Cai Lao Shi was called home to be with the Lord recently.

Just then, my nearlynineteen self shot back to being nine again. Copying all those chinese words into exercise books with boxes not lines.

I remember Cai Lao Shi always wore a ready smile on her face when she came into class. She enjoyed what she did, and it showed in the way she loved each and everyone of us and cared for our welfare more than our chinese speaking abilities which btw I think I gave most of it back to all my chinese teachers.

You'll be missed Lao Shi, you're in a better place(:

The last time I saw her about 5 years ago when MG Primary moved back, she still remembered my name.

Such is the process of life. I am just comforted to know that I'll see her again soon.

再见, Lao Shi.

Ohmy.

When I finish my last paper for this semester, I'll be officially be halfway to my degree.

[edit/] It's like 4am in the morning, and I'm about to conclude. But I'm starting to get a little hyper. Hurms. Time to watch House!