thank you.

i woke up this morning, feeling blessed BEYOND blessed and i WILL go to sleep feeling blessed BEYOND more blessed if that makes any sense.

besides the fact, that i'm aching REALLY badly and i'm TERRIBLY sunburned from skiing, it was the MOST wonderful day. truthfully, i was dreading becoming 17. i prayed so hard that it'd be sweet...

and it was.

to all those people, who called, msged, turned up at my place to make my day SO special, those overseas who remembered, A VERY BIG THANK YOU!
this one and only time that i turn 17 was so special because of people like you guys and it really made my day(:

"it's You that gives me everything i have..."

thank you SO SO SO MUCh.
*mish is smiling so hard [think she's gonna BURST anytime.]

the thing about flowers and snow.

whaha. red flower. nice. haha.
trinity idol was a completely interesting experience. something i'll probably never forget. haha. timestwo did well, and i'm proud. it was our best performance yet. like daddy bang always said, "everytime you perform the same song, you start to find something new all the time about that song." and it's TRUE! everytime vicc and i sing [stay], it somehow comes out differently and well, just new. anyhow, to vicc, you're the best singing buddy and partner ever(: i would do it again if i had to. well, kinda. not really. but mayb. i'll think about it. i kinda prefer acting. ohwell.
yay! in about roughly 2 hours time, i'll be on my way to mount buller to ski! how exciting. see snow. i'm glad to take a break and time off from the city. i shall enjoy the two days of total break before it's back to reality and...
exams.
mish: over and out.

ps. thank you VEH much to the lovely people who came to trinity idol to support timestwo! and to my wonderful cell for the birthday cake! it's SUPER yum(:

still the same.

you've still got your brown eyes.
you still talk like what i remember.
you still smile that lovely smile.
you still let me know you'll be around.

you're still you.

yes. HOI is over and everything. yay(: [my new housemate just used the handsoap to wash the dishes.] WHAHA. tee's hilarious lah. okay. anyway, i just finished like two major essays in like, 3-4days. not good ones. i think. siggh. at least it's all over. haha. i refuse to ask for an extension. hurhur. well, i got some new photos i think i'd like to put up. but i just realised that i haven't been photographing for sometime. ohwell. i need sleep. i fell asleep in ALL my lects today. tsktsk. but psych was on 'sleep' anyway. hehe(: anyhow, anyway, any why...

i change, but You never do.

brain-dead.

i can't do anything else so i blog. yet again.
i'm totally uninspired to write anything about alchemy and the bacon guy.
listening to emo songs like "home" and suddenly i really miss home. i wanna go back to where i can sit down at ghim moh market and eat 3buck char kuay teow that actually tastes good. and meepok, and and... i just wanna go back home lah. plain and simple.

my brain's not working anymore (like it ever did) but it's badbadbad. i just two pieces of bread with nutella hoping VERY hard that something good would actually come out of it.
well, obviously not. so i've just been sitting here staring at the computer and the question, questioning the question and looking at the sources which are terribly useless i might add. i feel like just giving this 30percent up.

unmotivated.

this is not getting me anywhere. i should just go get some sleep and mayb wake up tmw morning and find that i finally got inspiration to write. i haven't slept early in a long time. mayb today's the day to do so.

"baby, tmw's a brand new day
take your wings and learn to fly away.
just think, it'll all be over in a while
then you can smile
at me again.
for now i'll smile for you
to get you through
yesterdays, todays and tomorrows."

i'm frustrated. very. rawr.

they all say.

steph was just saying yesterday that she tends to blog more when she's stressed. how true is that. *mish looks at herself. sighh. so here i go again...(please don't mind me. this is purely for my own self. you don't have to read.)
i learnt how to reduce the size of the book so that you can photocopy two pages nicely onto on page. yay! josh was nice enough to ask the librarian. haha. oh! MISH HAS FINISHED HER PSYCH! say YAY! haha. i'm so happy. *sighofrelief. NOW... for the big one. the one that i've been putting off since i got it. THE HOI... essay. gahhh. okay. dong's gonna say that i'm making unintelligible, one syllabic noises again. i'm supposed to be HOI-ing now and eating my dinner which is curry chicken and uh, bread. BUT. i'm doing neither. i can't start HOI now lah. how to think. GRRR. and i'm supposed to the eat the bread with the curry, but i think i shall just get nutella to put on my bread and finish up my chicken. why i'm i telling you all these anyway?
siggghh. ok lah. i should go and start HOI-ing.

"just a little more baby."

ps. sigh. i forgot about my veggies. i had to eat them like grass. GAH.

rambles and shambles.

goodness. i'mgonnadiefromexhuastionandterriblethingslikepsychologyessaysandhoiandeverythingelsewhymusthesekindathingsexist?!
GAH. *pulls out hair. as charles says, "you only get stressed when you got essays."
well, i can't exactly get stressed any other time?okay. i'm not stressed per se, but i am.
but i shall not go on about being stressed, cos i have to take an optimistic view on this. i got like, one sixth of my psych essay done! how cool is that! *mish acts all happy and estatic. YAY. hah. anyway, i've had a good day. haha. i finally didn't have lamb stew for dinner, OR fried rice. but i had tau yu bak. haha. which is uh, soy chicken. which i just had like, a few days ago. so far we've been alternating between these three for the past few weeks. i miss my mommyy. i want my steak again with mushroom sauce. haha. OH. steph and josh just showed me that i'm really spoiled and i've got really good friends. haha. i'm so suaku lah. i don't know how to use the photocopier. haha. BUT, as i've got really nice friends, they showed me how to use it, of course, while doing so, saying how pampered i am, that last time people photocopy my stuff for me one... lah dee dahh... and. now, mish knows how to use the photocopier!

anyway, i'm just here to ramble ramble ramble. haha. i'm going nuts. yay! (:

"does it come down on you like the rain?"
what IS it about the rain? (:
i like.

fly away.

"you can fly so high
keep your gaze upon the sky
i'll be praying every step along the way
and even though it breaks my heart
to know we'll be apart
i love you too much to make you stay
baby fly away."
-fly away by corrinne may

rubbish.

totally, absolute rubbish. entirely.
feeling like that.
don't know why.

"When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever."

it's cold. it's winter. i want it to snow.

i could think of you all day.

aiyarh. i think i'm just tired.

a little gift.

to singapore, here's a happy 40th birthday present from us at TASTEBUDDS!

the first try.

this is how my tiramisu looked like at the first try. uh. it kinda. didn't turn out well. BUT. it turned out alright on the second try! yay! say yay! haha. it doesn't look very appetising tho. hurhur. ohwell. first attempt. not too bad. YAY! i can make something else!
okay. beside my uh, latest endeavour to make tiramisu, i'm pretty much dead. i've got like, 3 essays due next friday. and it's not helping that there's TONNES to readings to do and blah blah...

"stop whining tng."

yeah. okay. i shall stop whining. i'm not technically. BUT. i really really really really hate third term. it's SO... BLAH.
we celebrated national day today! and i wore red and white! haha. i had a hard time figuring out which red teeshirt. hurhur. oh, we had fun. yeah. we did. it's different, and we didn't have fireworks. ohwell. we got a REALLY laggy transmission of the parade, but no one was really watching. haha.
okay. i'm off to uh, start my work. yeah...
but i'm really sleepy. so i should go to sleep. okay. goodnight world(:

love can always wait to give.

times two.

"but i like the way you say you miss me, a little more than before

i like the way you kiss me, a little stronger

i love the way you say you love me

cos i love you more"

times two is back! with new songs.
i just love this one.

memory.

"memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."

is that why i always forget my homework?
hurhur. alright. not funny.

things to remember: today, yesterday, yesterdays, tomorrow and tomorrows. forevers and always.

won't forget.

i wonder.

i wonder what would it be like
if i were blind.
i couldn't see your face.
i couldn't know what you look like.
just imagine.

i wonder what would it be like
if i couldn't feel.
i wouldn't sense your touch.
i wouldn't know what it feels like.
just dream.

i wonder what would it be like
if i couldn't hear.
i wouldn't perceive your voice.
i wouldn't know what you sound like.
just wonder.

but i don't have to.
for that, i'm forever thankful.