camp was an amazing time spent with God.with friends and people as well.i got to know God better and what He wants for me.and i've never met so many different kinds of people before!my group was a good mix of people,and we got along really well.the campsite was really nice and pretty.and the stars were really amazing.miss that part the most.
well,anyway,during the tabernacle,which was a sort of re-creation of the actual one,when i stepped inside,i didnt feel anything much,then i prayed in the first section of the tabernacle.as i started to move along,the deeper i went inside,the more of God's presence did i feel.and when i stepped into the Holy of Holies,it was just simply amazing.i was so awed by His presence,that i was so stunned.i just stood there in front of the Ark,and i just kept on thanking God for sending His only Son to die for us on the Cross,just so i could be there right then and there.i knelt there,in the Holy of Holies just to listen to His still small voice and just be close by.it felt so good.and i felt a sense of peace and contentedness.as i walked back to the dining hall that night,altho it was cold and everything,i just felt this sense of warmth and fuzziness coming from within.and i just had to smile to myself.

other than that last day,the sermons by the speaker,ian grant were really good and it's something that i as a student can apply to my everyday life.
no idol was really funny and super touching also!melb uni people did a dedication to yuan!super sad lorr.my tennis buddy left le...bleax.anyway,we played tennis as well and ultimate frisbee and cap ball as well,and it was,well hilarious.esp frisbee.haha.what we did with it,my goodness.you can just sit there and laugh like a crazy idiot.and on the last night,we punked lucien!haha!it was quite funny lar.haha.i didn't sleep on the last night cos like we were playing indian poker and i had to write my name with my butt.ahhh.so super embarassing.felix's dare was super funny!and what else...let me think.oh,we jammed with two guits till like brekkie in the morning,and ahDong is like a jukebox man,he knows so many songs!we just kept going on and on and on...till daybreak.wanted to watch sunrise,but it was too cloudy and all that.
and camp was SUPER cold.i was freezing my fingers every night,esp when we went to watch stars and stuff.four layers and still cold!but i thank God for the cold.haha.cos it's really nice altho i was freezing.
anyway,i had to walk all the way back from royal parade back home after the bus ride,on which the people beside me were singing and singing,but i was so tired i just knocked off.haha!i woke up just in time for fixing a broken heart tho.haha!anyway,so i'm really aching like nuts from carrying all my stuff home and i'm tired,after trying to study for lit exam today,which was ok.i'm going to knock out alr.ok...i'm gone.

take My hand and walk,where I lead.

p.s. luc,you get special mention!haha.happy?get well soon. ;)

"a campin' we will go hi ho hi ho..."
off to camp off to camp!tng's off to camp!
as i said before,it's just time to get out of the city.
yay.finally.
tngying, out.


i can only give you love that lasts forever,and the promise to be near each time you call.

p.s. i can roughly juggle three balls.i will master it at camp!kudos to leeway. :)

doh.why do days past SO terribly slowly.wednesdays are the best cos i get to sleep in.BUT got no one to go hang out and bum arnd with me.bleahh.so actually,wednesday off is not the best lar.everyone still has class and stuff.ahwell.i have found a new progression.and i managed to listen and play 'you were meant for me' by bellefire.so that's my day.i'm supposed to do work.i'm always supposed to do work.but instead i come here and ramble and rant.
oh yeah.i am reading elisabeth elliot's 'secure in everlasting arms' and yesterday's devotion hit me.'love always sacrifices'.not that line.but the whole story.and it hit me for the second time.the first time i read it i think was in PDL.along the same lines.sacrifice.ok.this just came.i'm talking to jemkor while blogging and he was telling me that when he was sitting in some talk,the person started talking about love.and it was about sacrifice too.aahhh.so scary.no it's not.but it's like.another whack right across the face.so that's about 2 for today.

so love's about sacrifice.ok.i mean not entirely.but mostly.and can you imagine,God did that for us.what more.a human,His only son.without sin.someone like us.someone who understood us.had to die.for love.how much is that love,i could never know.
wow.i'm so amazed.this is something that i've learnt so many times before.cos i've heard it so many times,it has kinda lost it's effect.but i think it has never really hit me as hard as it hit me these few times.

two more days till camp.i need to get out of here.
i have to.i want to.to get to the outbacks.with nice fresh air.

and be just with you.

p.s.to those who've always wondered why i'm so slow to react and all that,i think i found the answer in psychology.but as leeway says,my processor has been increased to a pentium 4 i think.i made a really good joke recently,btw. :)

i finished my psych.like after don't know how many hours of sitting there and trying to cut out words so that i'm in the limit.argh.but anyway,i finally finished my essay then i went to meet cell for franklin graham.yeah.we watch guy sebastian sing.
ok.i have to post this first.i've been going home at like 12am on fridays and my parents don't call me at all.is that scary?like back home where it's safer,they call me every other hour...mayb i'm getting my freedom.haha.or mayb cos it's just expensive to use house phone to call mobile here.
ah.ok.i'm talking nonsense.anyway,that was yesterday.
i'm going crazy.
i wanna go for camp.
camp,hurry up and come.

what about the love we've been fighting for?

faith and obedience.

easy to say.

hard to do.

i'm still holding on.

yesyes.my comp like got burnt or something.but i shall not go into details.
today i went to watch 'hitch' with liwei,keegan and ian at crown.
well,cliche as it is,there are a few things in there that are worth mentioning.and anyone who's looking for a movie to watch,it's quite good...i laughed so much that when i got out of the theatre,my cheekbones were aching like nuts.i don't think i've had such a good laugh in so long.
well,'life is not measured by the number of breaths that you take,but the number of moments that take your breath away.'
how true.
ok.i gotta run.finish up again sometime.

you're the only one who can make me fly when i'm falling.

you ever wished that you could turn back time?

or just let time stop at some important or precious moment so that you could just absorb every single detail of it?

i always do.
i always wished that i had more time.do things that i've always wanted to do.

they say that when you look at stars,you're looking back in time.looking at burning planets or something like that from billions of years ago.

time will tell.

the leap of faith.i didnt even dare stand up.but i jumped in the end! 

and i saw a rainbow.
a promise.
a prayer.
and hope.

i wonder if you saw what i did.

ok.i was really really overwhelmed yesterday by the internet so here i go again.i'm supposed to be studying my HOI (history of ideas) notes online.ok.but anyway.
ohh...i have to thank God for my o's result.well,it's not FANTASTIC compared to all the 0s and and 6s that people get,in fact it's quite bad.but,i am super happy and extremely satisfied with my results thank you.well,considering that i knew that i was going to aussie,and then the offer was unconditional yadayada...BUT.i still worked my butt off for that A2 that i've never EVER gotten for math in my entire life.and so i'm extremely satisfied with my results.thank you God.couldn't have done it without You.to all my friends and teachers,i couldn't have done it without your endless support.especially all my math teachers.thank you for not letting me off the hook and endlessly chasing me to do more math papers.and sitting there with me and making sure i did my work.and the corrections.thank you thank you.friends!thank you for all the encouragement and all.i just needed to hear that "you can do it!" when i thought that i couldnt.

about my life so far in Melbourne,it's quite interesting and very different from life in Singapore.i shall not say anything abt the admin here.but the life here is quite good.i'm gonna watch the grand prix!ok.i mean how often in Singapore do i get to sit on the grass,watch the people go by,and eat my lunch?how often in Singapore can i see the southern cross?NEVER.and let me tell you,that cross,is such a beautiful sight to behold,it just takes your breath away.but you can only see it in the suburbs.heh.not in the city.it's a bit too bright here.but i realised that here,especially when i walk to school,i use that time,to just appreciate the things around me.something that i never got to do in Singapore due to the fast paced life there.and i mean the weather there is terrible to walk anywhere in the first place.so i spend time with God on my way to school.just that few mins before i meet my friends to walk to school,is never enough.i always want more of that time.but those few mins are treasured.it's amazing that those big trees that shield you from the sun,grew from a tiny seed.all you had to do was watch and wait.all these tiny things are often forgotten in this ever changing and sleepless world.

so sit down and just feel innocent like a child again sometimes,who's amazed by the smallest of things.and just love those moments.i certainly do.
jun,thanks for the advice. :)

i'm living life,loving life,and living love.

i'm back!yay!after like a million and one years,i have finally gotten my internet.
okies,let's start at camp.camp was quite fun and slack.spent my days there playing basketball and star gazing.it's VERY cold at night and with only one sweater,i don't know how i came out there not frozen.the sky is absolutely GORGEOUS at night and on the second night we watched moonrise.just to be quiet and look at the wonderful things that God made for us.it's absolute bliss.
ok.that's camp.er...then we had classes and stuff which are quite fun.but i've got so many different people in all my tutorials.and i have to walk SO far for some of the lectures.bleah.but.i get every wednesday off.everyone,be jealous.haha.lectures so far are pretty interesting.especially psych.can sit there for hours listening to that lecture.
i can't wait for drama class!hmmmm.altho i start sch at like 9 everyday,but keep in mind that i walk to sch.which means that i have to walk pretty far.so i have to leave the house half an hour b4 the start time if not i will be late which wont be too good.
yeah.so that's my life so far.i found someone to play the nice guitar part for this song 'on my own' from les mis.take a look at the lyrics.i shall leave you with it.

And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home without a friend
Without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near
I can make believe he's here
Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping I think of him and
I'm happy
With the company
I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head
On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone I walk with him till morning
Without him I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us
I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers
I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me
His world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known
I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.