sigh.still so long more to go.and like so many days.i'm just dying here.
i just found out yesterday i'm not cut out to be a referee.haha.i'm too laggy and too slow.i don't see things i'm supposed to see.haha.but i can count pretty well.
my comp is down at the moment so i'm using my cousin's comp.thank God i managed to save my files on another hdd b4 anything happens.i will cry if i lose all my pics n songs.memories of things that are precious.
i wrote a few songs in the midst of my exams.yes.but yeah.they've gotta be refined for public viewing.haha.

sometimes i wonder if you really do get what i'm trying to put to you here.
sometimes i wonder if you are even ever here.
sometimes i wonder if you were ever even there.

'you can give without loving,but you can't love without giving.'

i've been doing my PDL faithfully.it's been amazing you know.that phrase struck me very hard.i've made the mistake of never giving enough of my time to people who mean so much to me and i love too many times.and i'm not gonna do it again.
after exams.that's my piority.

you and i both loved,what you and i spoke of.
i still love.

The Scientist-coldplay
Come up to meet you, tell you
I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
---------------------------------------------------
i know this song is super old.but like i just heard it in my kor's car and the lyrics just struck me just like that.i wasn't even listening to the lyrics.but it just hit me.cos i was listening to the guitar.but yeah.it just really struck me.that's what i really want.to go back to the start.i know it wont be easy.no one said it's gonna be.but i want to try.i'm willing to try.
do u want to?
cos...

i wanna go back to the start with you.

i haven't blogged for sometime.things havent started looking up,but i made it look up.i prayed.i think God's telling me to wait.n that's wad i'll do.
i'm gonna wait.
i've got new songs.haha.but er.not really.jas and i wrote one during geog lesson today.haha.super funny.we were writing a "pre o's" song.it's entitled [to be free again].yea...i must go n get the lyrics from jas.she has them.i can't remember wad i wrote.haha.i'll post it here as soon as i get it.i've got more poems too.
last night i couldn't get to sleep for many reasons.one was that i was thinking.and i was so excited when the five weeks is up.i really can't wait to do things that i've wanted to do.but dint get a chance to cos...of always the same thing.olevels.i can't wait for the day i'm free.i can't wait to run out of the exam hall and feel that i'm not chained to anything.i can't wait to spread my wings n fly.i can't wait!
ahhh!i think i wont be able to sleep tonight again.
i'm glad people liked that last poem i wrote.haha.got more!:)

love gives,love takes.
forgiven but not forgotten.

this one's for you.

when

do you remember
the days we shared
do you remember
when you cared
do you remember
the times together
when we wanted hours to last forever
when i was happy just to be near you
and have you tell me that you missed me too
when we'd sit under the same starry sky
and you'd listen to me cry
when you'd make me laugh out loud
and it was then that i knew without a doubt
that you were loving me
trying to make me see
how much that love was
that it wasn't forced
but it was then that you did not know
that my love for you had started to grow
it was something i never said
not knowing the big price that had to be paid
if i never told you how i feel
and i waited too long until...
when i realised my grave mistake
it was then i knew i was too late

i've never told you i could love you forever
and there could never be any other
that i never wanted to be apart
and never ever leave your heart

all these words are true
this i promise you
...and with my heart i'll seal
this promise about how i feel
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i wrote this quite sometime ago but i never did put it up.
i guess it's really how i feel.
they always say that you don't treasure love till you've lost it.
how true is that?
very.

loving you forever doesn't seem like long enough.

hmmms,today i was talking to my kor,and we decided to write this.it's not all what love is.just a bit.i'll keep adding when i can.for now,this is for all those i love.especially you.


"love is..." -by jeremy and tng on the 2 oct 2004

love is about waiting for that someday,somewhere,somehow.
love is about things that make my heart melt and more.
love is about loving you for who you are.
love is about the little things that we do for each other.
love is about understanding.
love is about unconditionality.
love is about trust.
love is about so much more than these,
but most of all...

love is about...
me and you.

so where am i now?
think i know where i'm going?
no.
i don't.
i still don't.
and i won't know till...
i dunno when.
what do i want?
where do i wanna go?
i give up.
i really do.
i hate this so much.
people say,
"if you study hard enough..."
so what's hard enough?define that.
make it clear.
what's "hard enough"?
rheatorical questions.
i need some answers.
i need to go somewhere.
maybe that's why i'm here.
i'm looking for my place.

where i should be.
where i want to be.
with you.

happy birthday wei!:)