i know it's been ages.but i still haven't gotten my internet.i'm getting super fed-up alr.arggh.but i'm going for camp.and that's something i really wanna do.so that's fine.the week will pass quite fast i hope.ahhh...i'm going crazy cos of that.
ok anyway,school's been quite fun.it's pretty wierd.cos everyone just says hi and stuff.then u get so many people's names.and after that,u never remember them.
ohh...yesterday i went to clayton.went to church there and stuff.it's quite fun.i actually like the church there.it's very like home.but it's too far lar.
anyway,i dont think i'll blog much today.this is prob just to make sure my accnt hasnt shut itself or something.
well.i shall update when i back from camp.
for now if i don't erm...reply mail or something.i'm so sorry...
i've got lots of things to say.but then i've gotta get going home soon.i'm at my fren's place.gotta be back before dark.
well.take care guys.
to eugene and mingdao: happy birthday!i know it's early.heh.

love that lasts.

another valentines day come and gone.
everyone on the streets holding bunches of flowers,or couples holding hands,just makes me sad and kinda jealous?but.i had a good day at the beach,getting burnt and sinking my feet into cool and refreshing water.taking stupid photos.which turned out quite nicely.haha.oh...and we took a walk on the rocks,near the water,and it was just so,peaceful to look out beyond the horizon and wonder,"wow.God's love is further and more extensive than this ocean or sea that's beyond me." how much God loves me,i think i could never ever comprehend nor fanthom.
thank you leeway and keegan for the fun day out.

anyway,i spent the night before just taking in things that God says in the Bible about love.
1 Cor. 13 is the love passage.'love is...'
what hit me the most was the part where love is always enduring and hopeful.

true love waits.

p.s.i will complete this when i actually dont have a time limit.

this weeks been quite fun.yesterday i went with leeway and keegan to smith st.
we were supposed to go to st. kilda's beach.but the sky didnt look clear at all so we decided to go to smith st.yes.again.we had vietnamese food.and by the time we got out of the eating place,the sky was so nice.but we had very little time.melbourne weather just fooled us.we had good fun at the state library before that.grabbing books on management and such.and a few nonsensical one.the two of them grabbed some photog mags for me too.haha.thoughtful people.
at smith st. the two guys learnt something new about girls!yay.haha.and we went to nike where a took the nicenice bags.haha.i bought a nice sweatshirt.we walked and walked,stopping at essential man.where the both of them took sometime trying on a nice woollen sweater which was only 20 bucks.i like it!that was keegan and leeway invested in some interestingly coloured polo tees which were very nice.haha.then we took a tram back.and walked thru carlton gardens.learning how do do the rubix cube things.ahh.i've got no more brains left for that.we went back and after keegan and leeway left i just plonked myself on the bed and slept.

every night when i spend time alone,i spend time with God and just time alone.it's always nice to just have a time for myself to reflect and think and pray.sometimes listening to the noises outside,it just has this certain calming effect.it's peace.
but there are those times here where the silence just pierces my ears.and it's too loud for me to take.
God.you had to do this me huh.so that i'll grow up?give and take away.it's hard you know.all the hurt,the tears,the pain.up till now.even after like a year.and then more hurt and pain.saying goodbye.when will this end?
and you told me,"nevermind child,just trust Me."

and i will be steadfast.i will not lose hope.

i'm currently reading max lucado's no wonder they call Him the Saviour.it's a book that i started 2 years ago when singee gave it to me for christmas,which i havent completed.
there was one chapter that struck me very hard.
during these few wks here,i've been kinda missing home very badly especially all the people that i love so much back home.
but then when i read this chapter,it struck me that,that's exactly what Jesus did.He left people here on earth.leaving was loving.
i'm gonna paraphrase cos i don't have the book with me.

what kind of God would give you family but ask you to say goodbye to them?
what kind of God would give you friends but put you thru' the agony of saying goodbye to them?

a God who knows that e deepest love is built not on passion n romance but on a common mission n sacrifice.

a God who did it Himself.

a God who knows that saying goodbye is in actual fact saying 'i'll see you tmw' because of eternity.


the Bible is full of goodbyes.it's such a common word for Christians.especially people who are called by God.missionaries.everyone.

so when i said goodbye to people back home,it's cos i love u guys so much.
especially you.

leaving was loving.

i moved in yesterday but not officially.heh.we got all our ikea stuff.so my new place smells super ikea.duh.and i've already injured myself from the stupid bed frame 3 times.i don't know how i'm gonna live with it.ahwell.my room's nice and empty and really bright!yay.
ok.it's really cold here now.it's been raining for the past few days so it's super cold.i'm at home and i'm wearing a sweater.and my toes are gonna freeze and fall off soon!ahh...
my house,as my mum wanted it to be is zen.yay.for once we have no trouble of having to find space for the numerous number of things we have.and it's a nice change to have a edgy kinda house.the only thing that ruins it all is that the apartment toilets,kitchen and carpets are,sadly.green.but it's not a garish green.thankfully.
well,anyway,last night i called tee and even with her VERY mild case of bronchitis.she's was still super high.it was indeed the medicine girl.i miss ting.ahh.she's the only one who hasnt called or we haven't called or whatever.ever since i've been here,it's like being on a holiday as if mayb in a few weeks time i'll be going back.but no.sadly it sinks in that i'll be here a year.or rather another ten months.not that this place isn't nice or something.but it's just not home.of course i love the weather here and everything.but home is where where the heart is.
sadly it's raining,if not i'll be sitting outside the state library,with a coke in my hand,watching the world go by.

i miss you.