needing to run.

there was always the place to run to. somewhere that's forever true. no masks, no facades. just you and you and you and you... and me.
in that place, i could scream and shout. no one would say anything. in fact, you, you, you, you and you would scream along with me, feel my anguish, my pain, cry my tears for me, fall down with me.

you wouldn't say anything, just cos. you knew, you felt. trusted that i'll be okay. there were no words. none were needed.

that goodbye was the hardest the say. and right now, it's the most painful to remember.
it hurts knowing that i could have stayed there, but somehow, i might have thrown what we had away.

now, there's nothing here that can be that place. my sanctuary no longer exists.

just when i need it most.

crunchycrispy.

no no, not krispykremes, that'll be about 16days from now till then.
36hour days cannot get better than eating microwavedpasta plusplus cruchycrispyjuicyyummylettuce. how can lettue be crispy. haha. anyway, besides being extremely productive after only 4hours of sleep in terms of running a loadoferrandsihavebeenputtingoff, my brain seems to somewhat konked. heh. so, aussie qualified, meaning more 36hour days.
yay. Lplates are in sight for this clumsyandcomingcrazy driver. heh. looking forward to the 10days of just You.

i know Your love does not run dry.
You're all this heart is living for.

neverland: found.

i found neverland
in a place most peculiar
no boundaries
just endless seams

a place where
i'll always be young
free and easy
never grow old

birds always fly
stars forever shine
grass is greener than
anywhere on this earth

i'll always be beautiful
i'll forever be small
eternity doesn't seem long
time never passes

i found neverland
in your eyes.

deep end dive.

you know that you're completely done for when you don't even know your own exam format.

and you don't know, really, where to start. yay for the fact that i'm not the only one. hurhur.

taking a dive into the deep end. ahwell.

maybe i'll start by watching a movie. hmmm.

11am tmw, here i come!(:

my little muse.

meet the men.

meet the boys in my life! (:
top left clockwise:

foy [celtic/gaelic]: means a journey
this faithful pocket camera has been my companion for coming to a year and has brought me the joys of fantastic high resolution pictures with lovely colour. his best quality, endurance [aka. battery life is long].

red [american]: means redheaded one
not red at all, but his attitude is sure firey at times. he brings me the great pleasure of loud distortions and is a perfect date for a rock concert.

art [celtic/gaelic]: short for arthur meaning noble strength, a bear
sexy, rugged, tanned. art is irreplacable. strong and steady, never failing to be my solid tree. my longest pal, and will always be the best. although i may not spend much time with him, especially lately, this baby, is still precious and not forgotten.

dax [french]: means water
only a week old, dax has been more than wonderful. he's sleek, shiny, black... well, at this point of time, i can't say much, but i think he's proving to be pretty reliable and of some sort of standard.

there you have it, my inanimate pals(:

feels like fire.

just the way it feels
burns
rages
fuel

emotions run
high
fly

fall back down
sigh

feels like

fire

inside of here.

sunny island.

yeah. i'm back in waytoohot singapore. i've been having a great time surprising people here and there and it's been rather productive. spending time with the parents and the little cousins who are growing up ohtoofast. grrr.

i guess i've been away for far too long.

coming back does have it's enjoyments, but there is a nostalgic thing about it as well.

the way things could have or should have been. all the ifs and maybes that surrounds this place is just way too overwhelming sometimes. and you're just another what-if i'd like to know about.

it's been a long journey, and i'm really glad where i am. still feels like home, it does.

friends who bring out the cam-whore in you are those that you know you can be you. and for that, i'm thankful.

most of all, i miss you.

house-hotting.

instead of housewarming, we went house-hotting in vicc's new place at docklands! phew. the place was hot indeed. veryveryvery nice abode. near the sea with nice breeze and everything. well, not a good idea in winter at all, but still. very warm and cosy in the house.
also,AHEM. due to vicc's friends and all that. there was also another hot *ahem* factor. man. she's so gonna kill me when she reads this. but anyway, it was fun and all. we had lots of food. including wunnerful onigiri by twish! that girl's talented lah. she should go and be a jap chef or smth. and vicc made chocolate fudge cake. -drools. i made my usual tiramisu which vee like ate alot of. hurhur. the cream's good good GOOD! hurhur. i should just make the cream and put it on everything else. hehe. delle and joel brought like SIX whole safeway chickens! crazy people. but of course, the partay wont be full without the, drinks. i realised that bacardi breezers and me don't go together much. ohwell. the indoor pool and gym is REALLY nice. joel, jon and i had a cotton on party! hurhur. we all wore cotton on shirts. how cool are we man(:

thanks to vicc and dajie for the luffly party! and to vicc, delle and twish- we should do this more often and have fun! joshiee. we miss you muchlyy.

anyhoo, weekend was a rushrushrush! but did have a gweat chill out with a few peeps closer to the heart. whee(:

i luff weekends like these.
one more assignment to be done and completed today and holidays, here i COME! [okay. except for one exam. growl. but nvm(:]

You taught me to run, taught me to fly,
thank You for loving me.