school starts tmw.im dead.tired.goner.prelims.im not even thinking abt it.im so tired.i dun wanna go back to school.for the first time in my life.i dun wanna go back to school.cos i see my friends anyway.i just dun wanna face the work.hah.and hectic schedule.still aching.anyway.tata.tc.

i didn't understand love...till i lost it.

tc:)

carrying amps arnd and setting up the drumset day after day as well as four keyboards is no joke.it has taken it's toil on me.im getting neck cramps and finger cramps.back's aching like crazy.my fingers dun feel anything.probably can prick it with a needle or something and i wont feel anything.wad do i feel nowadays anyway.i'm just tired out i dont' know anything else.i'm just going on and on.like clockwork.it's just that it's not as perfect as i'd like it.ahwells.i got prac again tmw.today's run thru with the cast was pretty cool and fun.tata.

if i could turn back time.

for my bros,ad and ry.

one so quiet, one so crap
but they both lifted my spirits
whenever i was sad
i knew i could always depend on them
for whatever i needed
cos they are truly heaven sent
we share our thoughts and dreams
the pain, the trials
we make a great team
both could always see right through me
read me like a book
each and every thought
they could see
i can trust that they will catch me when i fall
lift my head so that i stand tall
thank you my best bros
we'll always be here for each other
and forever stay
this close.

thanks u two for being there for me always.this one's for u.:)

ahwells.i look like some panda now.haven't been getting sleep again.yesterday i slept at 4 am.this morning.haha.woke up at 8.then broght my mum's friend out for lunch.orchard.went to taka.haha.yesterday,jingwen and i stayed up till like 2 am or something.we watched mystic river and then from hell.that show is gross la.all the guts and everything.ahwells.but the ending was super stupid.ahwells.then after the show he went to sleep.then i went to do work.till i feel asleep at my table.at about 4 i think.everyone is at camp.ting is back.gonna be spending lots of time with her i guess.my parents aren't home.for the next few days.gonna be all alone.FINALLY.couldn't wait for them to get off my back.ad left alr!!!!mark too.my bro and my boink buddy.ahwells.now got no boink buddy to entertain me anymore.tonight i think is gonna be another late night.off to work.enjoy yourselves.

ignore me and treat me like i don't exist.that works for me.

i can go poly lar.i dun care anymore.poly was always an option anyway.dun send me overseas.i can live here.since i cant make it anywhere anyway.go poly.work in mcdonalds.yeah.sure.i could live.buy a hdb also can.everyday take bus.yeah.
yeah.wadever.

not giving anything a damn now.

i am dead.back here for a just a while.then i gotta get back to my routine.i think insanity drove me to go and sign up for musical.the practices are nuts.im already dying.but it's really fun.haha.the songs are killers.but are nice.aiyaar.but i think it will be worth it.sigh.my fingers are dead.im falling sick.again.i hope not.the scores are crazy.not enough sleep.ok.that's been my past few days.and my next week also.and the following days.yups.sometimes im so tired i just stone and then someone has to slap me to get me back to reality.my pickup is really clean and nice!thanks jun!haha!happy with it.even though now i can totally forget about getting the mp3 player that i've been hankering after.till whenever.ahwells.wad to do.wha.our sound engineer is pro.so cool.ahwells.my days ahead will be waking up early to do work.going to school from 10-5,coming back,doing work.till late.sleep late,wake up early.ahwells.ok.gotta go.rest.do work.wadever.i cant remember.

unforgettable.

tc.:)

ohh boy.im so tired.parents woke me up so early today cos wad.they thought i had to go to school.they only heard the part about me going to school this week but not the only tuesday to friday part.argh.anyway,yesterday,we had worship retreat.quite fun lar.we did evaluation and all that.played for sharon for worship.then learnt a nice new song.called the mission.wha,the words are so powerful.anyway,today,woke up like dunno how many times cos my parents kept coming in to disturb me.super irritating.anyway,idid some work then practiced violin.and by then i was super tired alr.then went out for lunch with auntie and cousin and grandma and grandpa.came home and slept for a while.then played violin again.i dunno why but anyhow.then did work again before going to play squash with auntie.haha.so funny.laughed so much mans.and really sweated it out.hope i can sleep well tonight.after so many sleepless ones.haha.okies.gotta go.:)

you're the meaning in my life,you're the inspiraton.

fallen in love

soft light flooding my room
each ray of white coming from the moon
i sit beneath my window
and listen to the wind gently blow
while thinking of you,your name
and how you became
to me so precious and true
and somehow made me fall i love with you
just like the moon you are
so close yet so far
lighted my darkest hour
sweetened everything when they went sour
wiped away those bitter tears
took away all my fears
held my hand when i was alone
no one could ever be your clone
i could never love another as much as i love you
how much it is i have no clue
now i sit in the soft moonlight
meaning each and every word i write
trying to figure things out
i don't even know what about
but i know one thing true
i fell in love with you

im back!my last night in penang was quiet.haha.but anyway,i went to visit my godbro.played guits until super late with amps.haha.hope we dint wake the neighbours up.heh.when i reached home it was pretty late.but then i had to sit outside for at least a while to appreciate the night.wow.it's so awesome.the sky was diamond studded.i sat on the swings with the dogs.just looking at the sky.it was so beautiful.so pretty.then when i went back into the house tho.i activated the alarm.haha.but anyway,i spent the last few days there just sleeping on the nice comfy couch.so easy to fall asleep.cos there's nothing much to do.then the kids arent home to make noise and all.and it's so hot u dun feel like doing anything else.i could fall asleep for about 4 hours at a time.haha.so at night i wld be super hyper.haha.anyway,shld i get controls for the pickup?or no controls?hole or no hole?argh.i cant decide.bleah...it's good to be home.back to work.and practices till my fingers die again.

i left my heart back here.

tc.:)

im burnt.not really.but enough.it was super nice the beach and all.i did parasailing again,and then jetskiing.wha.i tell u.i had the time of my life speeding thru the waters.hah!at first i dint dare to accelerate.then eddy said just press lar.then i press all the way!whaha!so fun!we were like flying over the waves at some parts.haha!i think if eddy hadnt been holding on,he wld have flown off.it's just so exhilarating.fresh open sea.just ride to nowhere.ride into the horizon.parasailing high above in the skies with just urself.lonely,but the wind rushing past ur ears and everything,the breathtaking scenery.u just start marvelling at everything God's created.at night was even nicer.i was just sitting on the balcony alone for sometime till about 3am.just watching the stars grow brighter and brighter as the night went on.i saw a few shooting stars.they are so pretty.but they only last for a split second and then they are gone.i slept about 3.30 am then woke up at 6 to catch sunrise.but then the sun was on the other side.so dint get a chance to see.but in the late morning i took a walk at the beach with william.so nice to company me.hehes.walked along the edge of the water,my feet sinking into the wet sand with every step i took.the water was quite clear and cool.there was a nice soft breeze.i think it's one of the nicest walks at the beach.

wish you were here with me.

tc.:)

wha.im using this super old and everything comp.ahwells.in penang.ate so much today.anyway,on sat i went to hillsongs with bobby and mark.met juang,del and thia there,and alot of other pple.on fri i had lessons in the morning,ate sushi at BTP and then went back to sch,lessons,then prac for musical,just me and jas.haha.we played with the programme.quite cool lar.then anyway,i rushed home and bathed to get out of the house and to clementi mrt by like 6,i dint know it only takes abt half an hour to get to kallang.so got there really early.but mark was there alr.anyway,we heard that the queue was pretty long alr,so we just went there straight without eating anything.lined up.got into the stadium and had a really fantastic time of worship.i was kinda distracted that day.by hunger and everything else.but then God filled me then with His presence.felt really good after that.but then like after the whole thing,mark bobby and i were like dying of hunger.so we rushed off to macs near the mrt.wha.i hadnt eaten since the sushi in the morning.9 am.wha.nvr felt so hungry.but anyway.long walk back to mrt.yeah.then we had some technical difficulties with directions meeting nadine.so i only got on the train at abt 11.30.mum said i was nuts alr la.so took a cab back with nadine and mark and bobby.and nad and i took all the way back together.haha.then i stayed up till like 2 something trying to finish up my cat puzzle.the crazy thousand piece one.i was supposed to pack.but then i ended up just logging onto the net and stoning again.next morning i woke up at like 12.30.nvr slept till so late b4.but i did wake up in between.ahwells.i woke up and rushed pack.hadnt even started at all.my mum thot i was nuts running arnd the house looking for things.but i got packed and ready b4 her anyway.i travel light.yups.then went to the airport lounge to eat.haha.haggen daaz.phew.ate so many.my last time there.of course better.haha.then got onto the plane.there was a very nice sunset on the plane.so i took some pics.the food was horrible.so i dint touch it at all.except the coke.haha.my dad and i were like playing video games on the plane.so funny.he was playing pinball.haha!all the way till touch down.it was raining again.and then,when we got off,it felt like home.
today i went to see william and gen,then then they have a new kitten.so smaalll and cute.haha.eddy came back today too.and he has this new jap haircut.haha.he got a small pony tail at the back.going to the beach!yay!pray it dun rain.then i can spend some time at a place that i really wanna be in.i collected my album today.it's so funny.haha.and then went to shop for a while.i bought like two pairs of jeans at one shot.im not gonna shop alr.i hate shopping anyway.i was just walking with my mum rather than sit at coffee bean with my dad and waste time.while he reads my book.dad stole my boook!!!he's addicted to it alr.haha.thanks joyce for lending it to me.da vinci code.so intriguing.celine is SO CUTE!haha.but she's very noisy also.
gonna be spending time at the beach soon,hopefully.sunsets,sunrises.
well.take care.:)

home is where you are.

stoned and stared and...
i got this new camera.vcam.i dint even ask for it la.must as well have gotten a player for me.sheesh.aiyaarh.who wants to read abt my life anyway.

the price of freedom and life.

tc.