i dint feel like blogging.but yet i needed somewhere to get away to.
i want my prelim results.but i dun want them.irony.again.argggh.i wanna get the whole "where-am-i-gonna-go-after-o's" thing off my head.it's irritating.speculation is never good.i can go overseas.i can go poly.where am i gonna go.i hate it when i'm given the choice.but yet,it's good.arggggh.wads with irony these days.it's getting on my nerves.bleax.
i got off the phone with ting after a like 2 over hour long talk.it feels real good.thanks for listening girl. :)
let's see,what did i do today?i had tuition in the morning.studied.studied.had lunch.oh.i watch ella enchanted.sheryl's dvd.it's quite funny.haha.the jokes are so lame.haha.but anyway,it's a sweet fairytale and very creative too.haha.and the songs are all really nice.heh.
i just realised not too long ago that i'm a real sucker for all these romancy stuff.never really knew that.but anyway.
i'm just bored.and i'm gonna blog nonsense.cos i dun have much of a life to blog about.

I think I love you
So what am I so afraid of?
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of
A love there is no cure for
I think I love you
Isn't that what life is made of?
Though it worries me to say
I've never felt this way

i like this song.it's from ella enchanted.
sometimes i dun say it cos i'm really scared of saying it.
dun ask me why.
i just am.
i just wanted to let you know,
that i love you.

i may never get to hold you sometime,i may never get to kiss you goodnight again.
but a girl can dream.

sigh.i keep blogging n then my comp keeps giving me probs.then in the end i everything again.
sat,i went for wenfu n yvonnes wedding.it was all sweet n all.cos the atmosphere of the beach n all that was so nice.so super nice.went with jas early to help.n we both got real burnt.heh.yeah.sometime alone there good to think and think.heh.it was real nice.i should go there more often.love that place altho it ain't the best beach.wad to do.
sunday i went with mingdao to watch terminal.it was a sweet show but it ain't fantastic.
monday i went to borders to read.digital fortress by dan brown in 3 hours.heh.and he's so predictable.i shld go there and read again.it's nice to just get out of the house to somewhere nice too.i need to buy books.heh.i just realised that like my kor i'm a sucker for romance books.heh.nicholas sparks and all that.haha.
we had some careers thingy today and my feet are dying from walking all over in heels.luckily i brought my sneakers along.heh.then we had chapel prac as well.
i guess life is a big more relaxed.not for long.prelims over.one more hurdle.need the momentum which i need to start running again.i had a 2 day break.starting again.i actually want my prelim results back.altho i know how bad it's gonna be.but i just wanna get the decision of going where after this outta my head.i hate the feeling of having something stuck at the back of my head.esp this.it's getting into me.hurry upppp.argggghhh.
i'm always waiting huh.ok.i've gotta be patient.then everything will start to fall into place.i've gotta trust God with this.i've gotta.must.and i will.

what am i waiting for?
i'm waiting for you.

whywhywhy?!!!
i've been asking that alot lately.
why????
why have i been asking that lately?
and why is it that lately i've been asking why?
aiyarh.i dunno lar.argggh.

physics was crap.MCQ was hard beyond hard.how do they expect anyone to pass.after half an hour i was at like er...question 16?argggghhh.noooooo.anyway.it's ALL over.finally.prelims.one nightmare is over.so many more to go thru...
well,today i did the inventory for the career thingy.and i'm an ARS.dun ask wad it is.i just know that it's something very arty.and it sounds very vulgar.then i went with jas and wenfu to sentosa to check it out.it's so nice.sigggghhh.going there tmw again.to really relax like anything.forget everything if i can.IF i can.BIG IF.i love the sea.maybe i shall stay there till the sunsets and spend some time alone with the wonderful things that God has created.i always find that amazing.especially when i'm feeling like the way i do now.i can't wait.really.been waiting for a time like this for the longest time.
i need time alone.
time to think and listen.
just while.
it's all i'm asking for.
i need to find back my happiness.
i need to find you again.

i could fall in love again.with you.

whywhywhy?!!!
i've been asking that alot lately.
why????
why have i been asking that lately?
and why is it that lately i've been asking why?
aiyarh.i dunno lar.argggh.

physics was crap.MCQ was hard beyond hard.how do they expect anyone to pass.after half an hour i was at like er...question 16?argggghhh.noooooo.anyway.it's ALL over.finally.prelims.one nightmare is over.so many more to go thru...
well,today i did the inventory for the career thingy.and i'm an ARS.dun ask wad it is.i just know that it's something very arty.and it sounds very vulgar.then i went with jas and wenfu to sentosa to check it out.it's so nice.sigggghhh.going there tmw again.to really relax like anything.forget everything if i can.IF i can.BIG IF.i love the sea.maybe i shall stay there till the sunsets and spend some time alone with the wonderful things that God has created.i always find that amazing.especially when i'm feeling like the way i do now.i can't wait.really.been waiting for a time like this for the longest time.
i need time alone.
time to think and listen.
just while.
it's all i'm asking for.
i need to find back my happiness.
i need to find you again.

i could fall in love again.with you.

4 down.5 more to go.
geog was so sucky.i can forget about my B there.
chem was like.ok lar.considering my level of chem.i think it was ok lar.
emath.arggggh.why on earth must they make it so tricky.how do they expect pple to go JC for the first 3 months huh?not like i wanna go.
i cannot wait for these 5 pprs to be over.then i can relax for a while.just a short while.just a moment or two.
for some reason.nowadays,i cannot fall asleep as easily as i could previously.
so the next morning,i take forever to wake up.i used to jump up to a new day.where has those times gone?
you mean i've aged so much?
where has happiness gone?
where has time gone?
sigh.
i had better go study for emath.
i can't wait for satuday when i can go to the beach and just sit there by myself and maybe watch sunset or something.

are you ever coming back again?

i nearly fell off my bike.twice.today.
maybe i was thinking too much.
i'm being brainless again.
and i'm not gonna be here for sometime since prelims start next week.
scary.
i walked into the stupid chest of drawers today while walking around the house at night.
so embarassing.lucky there wasn't anyone at home.
super painful.
how come i dint remember that there was a huge chest in front of me.
i'm sleeping while i'm awake.
i'm healthy while i'm sick.
i'm slacking while i'm studying.
the irony of life.
arh...
back to the books.

where are you?how come i can't find you?

are you there?

ok.i'm so dead.
i keep falling asleep.
what is wrong with me?
arghhhh.
i can't study for like more than like 30 mins.
i'm so screwed up for prelims.
so dead.
i went jogging today.
or rather i tried to jog.i ran to the tennis courts,and i was panting like a dog alr.unfittness.argggh.
i'm unfit.i cannot study.i cannot do anything.so what do i do.sleep my life away.yesyes.i slept like 3 time today.meaning i wasted about 3 hours or so.or more.that's bad.
and i wonder where all my time has gone to.i really wonder.
i am brainless now.so 'daddy' says that i shld do something brainless like blogging.it is very brainless.i am brainless too.so blogging and me go very well together at the moment.
i can't wait for next week to come so that i have a reason to slack.i'm so gonna take a good break.cos i really cannot take it alr.
i found it quite funny today when my tuition teacher said that it's amazing how come it's so easy for me to memorise songs and all that,but i can't remember the stupid extraction of iron.dunno which one comes first.the coke or the carbon.or are they the same things.argggh.but i can remember the use of cryolite.amazing huh.dunno why.but anyway,that's beside the point.does anyone know how i can keep myself awake?if u do,besides pinching myself,switching on the aircon and all that nonsense,cos i've tried those, please tell me thank you.

i miss those times that i spent with you.i really do.sometimes i wonder where are you and how come you're not by my side?i also dunno why.i miss you very much.so much till i dun even know how much.really.i mean like.i dunno.see, i can't even explain it.
but love isn't about possession issit?it's about wanting you to be happy.
well,i guess.but it's hard ain't it?

cos' i'm still in love with you.

why now.
why.
i dunno why.
but i just need to blog now.
about what.
i also have no idea.

encounter was good.had fun running around with the camera.
attendence was good.

went cartel today.sorry melly n sam.i forgot i was in PS.so didn't call you guys.
then went to see guitars with jun n tmd.
came home.
went for dinner with family.
boring.
came home.
here now.
confused.
i dunnno why.
feeling like crap.
feeling like nothing.
feeling like...
feeling alot of things.
such that i dunno wad to feel.
so many questions.
so few answers.
what am i gonna do.
i dunno.
my favourite phrase at the moment.
i dunno.

i don't want anything if i ain't got you.

Valentine- Martina Mcbride
If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you
And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time...
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
'Cause all I need is you, my Valentine
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

i was doing teachers' day present yesterday after english paper so i was helping joyce and then ivin brought her laptop,so we were listening to music.and this song came up.i love it.i'm actually not sure if it's the right one.heh.ahwells.anyway, yeah.so anyway, today's teachers' day was quite interesting. Bangsters Inc. played. heh.it was quite funny at the first part.whaha.then the teachers teared when we sang the song that we wrote for them! yay!then wenfu brought jas, mag and i to harbourfront to eat lunch.yeah.we were just chatting about anything under the sun.i love being with the Bangsters.i just forget everything when we are jamming and stuff.it's gonna be cool.yay.sigh.ok.yesterday i couldnt sleep.not for the past few days i havent been able to sleep.well like it'll make a diff since i havent been able to sleep for the past few months.so anyway, i was like lying in bed trying to sleep.i'd close my eyes, and think that i'm asleep.but then,i'd open my eyes. and.crap. i'm not asleep yet.shooots.i did that for 2 hours or so till i finally fell asleep.so today i was falling asleep during lunch.ahwells. okies. anyway,i've gotta go and study for SS.ta. :)

i love you not only for what you are,but for what i am when i am with you
- Elizabeth Barrett Browning