today's chinese paper was horrible horrible.so not gonna say anything about it.it's over already anyway.but then the compo i hope i do better larh.since i used the exact same topic for midyrs.anyway.for the whole of this week.im gonna just burn everyday.every single day i got something on.still gotta go for lessons.and then gotta do make up violin lessons.and then...i also dunno alr.i just need to go away.like it will help.but then i just wanna leave singapore for a while.just sometime to chill out with my godbro over there and my cousins and all that.and just go back some place familiar than where i am now.and go and play in the garden with the dogs and have water fights like last time and just be the way i used to be.for just a while.go shopping(npt really) with my cousins and spend the entire day in gurney.not doing anything but just walking arnd.nothing in particular.then walking to one stop to go and walk again.then walk homewha.and get back at like wad time.shoik.and then go eat at like 1 am in the morning.roti prata.hah.just.go away.leave singapore for a while.

leave.

just came back from dre's band concert.it was super funny and some parts were pretty cheessyy.but then overall it was pretty good la.hehe!u go dre!haha!anyway,today we had prac in the MEP room.can u imagine.my goodness.we had to like carry ALL the equipment to the MEP room.now my back is broken and im aching all over from carrying the stupid amps and pianos up and down the stairs over and over again.and then got so much feeback in the room and everything was just so loud cos the room is so small!argh.i was going deaf.anyway,the song what happened to your smile is so nice.i hope we have a nice recording of it.argghhh.i wanna play it.haaha!jemma!i will gladly play all those flats and sharps!haha!it has five flats.horrible key.but it is the nicest song.then we had music appreciation in that sense.haha.quite nice lar.listening to new,deep,complex,cheem music that has alot of meaning.this song called unworthy of your love.wha.so nice.phew.and another reason why my back is aching is cos jun's guit plus bag is so heavy!i took bus and climbed the hill to school la.wha.so heavy.and then took bus back.so walked down the hill again.my goodness.but it's really good exercise.but prac today was so short.esp since we arent gonna be practising with each other meaning the strings and rhythm together for the next 2 wks.today's song was super funnny.haha!had alot of fun with it.then jas came over for a while after prac.yups.then i slept for a while first.then woke up to study chinese before going to meet wei at clementi to go to raffles.ahwells.chinese o's on monday.all the best everyone if i dun get to blog tmw.

take me to your heart.

tc.:)

today had chinese chinese and more chinese.i feel so chinese ed now.altho i feel extremely stupid at the moment cos everyone in my class seems prepared.i feel the stupidest there or smth.anyway,we left school at like 12.30.then we talk to lao shi and ms ng for like dunno how long.then we walked down.then like nearly at the end of the slope le,the 970 came.wha.i wanted to kill the bus driver la.sheryl and i waiting for like 20 mins before the next 970 came.and we were like counting the number of cars and buses basically vehicles passing us.i think like 100 over.cant remember.but yeah.then the bus smelt like durians.ahwells.i hate it when pple say something and then they dun do it.aiyarh.but in the end my dad went to get the guit for me.thanks jun.and dad.ahwells.i think the only nice that i did today was walking and playing and running arnd in the rain.i was completely drenched and sitting in my living room with our wonderful powerful new fans spinning above me.wha.super shoik i tell u.haah.and watching tv and eating dinner.i ate another round or ben and jerry's.haha!this time had cherry garcia.wha....i got this new light in my room.on my fan.it looks funny in my room.with like this flowery shades.eeeks.but ahwells.it's light.i think i will remove the shades.whaha!and it's so cold now.haha!but it's nice.i'll be able to sleep better.i hope.tmw got prac again.haha.yay.in the MEP room due to unforseen circumstances.wha.wad a fun time we are gonna have transferring the instruments.die.and amps.woohoo.die.

forever cross my heart.

tc.:)

whoa,my class just broke our own record.14 absentees yesterday.all pon cross.haha!out of like 27 pple.pro huh.that's like more than half.anyway,then we got this long lecture from our teachers.but anyway,let's see.wad did we do today.we had chinese,chinese,then chinese.oh,did i mention that we had chinese?whaha!and then we did this NE quiz,quite fun la.and then we had chinese again.then we got back report book.after fooling arnd in class taking pics and all.yeah.dun really love my results.definitely room for improvement.as always.sigh.i still havent done my lit essay for korkor.i got only 3 days.yups.die.and chinese o's.aiyarh.i give up la.sometimes i dun even know wad lao shi is talking abt.im just gonna do wad i can la.when we combine class,i feel so stupid.with the a band and all.sheesh.like 52 over pple having chinese class together.so noisy also.anyway,then i came home,ate some lunch,wasnt very hungry anyway cos i had recess.then i slept and played guitar and blah blah.and for once i played my violin on my own.i just had to bring myself to practice those scales la.less i get nagged again on monday.and i dun think i have the time anymore to go and prac.so better do it.the sooner the better.my weekend is gonna be burnt.i ate half a tub of ben and jerry's icecream just now.and im still sick.smart tng.ahwells.i love chocolate.so.my dad and i just took the whole tub and split it.and watched tv at the same time.enjoyed the ice cream.love ben and jerry's!yay!anyway,i need to recover fast from this stupid cough.i need to go and run.and do something vigorous.feel so cooped up at home.bleah.whole day just sit at home and study,not good.bleahhhh...it rained today.
listen to the rhythm of the falling rain.pitter pat pitter pat...

something that i can say.

tc.:)

i dint go to school today cos got crosscountry.and then i'm still sick.kinda.so i dint go la.anyway,my mum wouldnt have allowed me run anyway.but i need to go run.i need to get away to somewhere during the hols.anywhere.i dun care where.anywhere.i just finished tuition with korkor.he's so smart and everything when it comes to lit.when he smokes thru an exam,it comes out ok.argh.and his vocab is like super good.wha.wad.poignant.aiyarh.i dunno la.i owe him one essay which is due on monday.i hope can extend cos got chinese o's which i dun care about anymore.i tried to study today.but yeah.i woke up late.cos i dint really sleep last night.then the air con pple came for servicing and all that.so noisy.but i did wadever chinese worksheets i had left.yeah.played guitar instead.play and play and play.wadever i could think of.listened to music.wadever.aiyaarh.now watching american idol.quite funny la.but ahwells.nothing to blog about today.im just gonna go off and watch alr la.
i wanna go away.and just stay there.where i can forget everything.i wish i could.but i cant.i just cant.everywhere i go everything stays the same.
i wanna go and get a mp3 played.nomad or something.i dun care.wadever.anything la.i want something which i cant get.so wadever.things cant get any worse.tmw im gonna go to school.and come home and sleep and study.and then go and get guitar from jun or something.those who want to get ticks for musical pls tell me soon cos i gotta order if not cant get good seats for u guys.

need to get away to someplace.

sigh.it's always the same isnt it.everything just goes the way it goes.went to school today and just had school.had the record number of hours of chinese.it's crazy they way they try to prepare u for chinese o's.siao one.sigh.nothing can go right.only things with God can.at least now.im praying that some things will just start falling into place again.and like things will be sorted.and that decisions that i make will be God's choice.and that God will start to let things fall in place too.and help me make them fall in place.everything is just so irritatingly wrong.argh.ok.anyway,i had musical prac today.i find much happiness in this i guess.yeah.then jemma and i went like seriously high.took our guit picks,then i went "dun PICK a fight with me now"and then we started laughing so much.and then like we were just laughing and laughing.i think we are the most slack instrument.someone took my place playing the synth.whaha!i CMI la.lousy counter and piano player.and then we made up this band bowing thingy while standing outside the audi waiting for it to be open.we were seriously high lor.the whole band.my goodness.we're mad man.they learnt this ultimate jazz song today.quite nice.then jemma and i were like dancing to it.i think the teachers sitting in thought we were seriously nuts.and finally,we have like nearly the whole of strings.including a cellist.wha.finally all turning up huh.after like HOW many pracs of absence.i think the rhythm section has the best attendance.haha!but anyway,yeah.today's prac was fun.im gonna borrow jun's guit for sat's prac.see how it goes.haha.it should go very well since it's such a nice guit.haha!yups.and yeah.wha.we have four keyboardist now.and if u look on the stage from the audience,and look at the drummer and four keyboardist and strings,wha,we look super pro lor.really supersupersuper pro.the keyboardist look so wha,aiyarh.dunno how to say.wei feng?pro la.super cooooool...esp when they are playing jazz.we sound like some pub larh.a really big one.hah!yeah.but i think we sound better than that dun we.ahwells.looking forward to sat's prac.we have a new song to learn.woohoo,we actually have like 8 more songs to go.wha.die.and my fingers.hmmms.arh.they are horrible.they are like peeling.and just peeling.so crap.my fingers dun harden.they peel.making them ugly.who'd notice anyway.and they hurt so much after prac if i dun play anymore.like how much they are hurting now.arh.but who cares anyway.i gotta prac my violin tmw.do some chinese.and also just play guit.if not my fingers might die on sat again or something.aiyarh.i dun care if they bleed la.i just pity the poor guit.my baby finger is just dying alr.peeling and peeling.like i got so much skin or something.anyway.im not going to school tmw.gonna sleep in la.sleep late and sleep in.shoik.just sleep and sleep.im such a pig.oink.whaha!oh.i can play april showers alr ry.hah.ok la.not really i guess.must learn to play the guit solo.haha!and then today jemma taught me some songs.the chord super easy and so repetitive.but it's soo fun to play together cos like she'll sing then i play then we'll be repeating and all.haha!so stupid.anyway,im talking nonsense la.i dun have better things to do nowadays and spend most of my time on the comp.rubbish la.i could be doing more productive and better things.making use of more of my time.sheesh.but i just spend time on the comp.cos i dun have better things to do la.aiyarh.ok la.im gonna log off,go and do some QT and maybe study a bit here and there till i sleep la.

i would jump if i knew you'd catch me.

tc.:)

wha.ok.im taking so long to blog.cos i came online and then all at once everybody said hi.until like got 12 pple!siao alr.anyway,today i led worship for class chapel.shared abt God's faiathfulness in my life.and all that.yeah.had a really good worship.and all.yeah.then had chinese.we had dental too.i was telling jieling that i never went to the school dentist with so many pple at one time before and she was just laughing and laughing.it was so funny!haha!and i was falling asleep during chinese.really.just nodding off.like i dint get enough sleep or smth.i dun think i did.ahwells.anyway,yeah.then we did the writing nice things about pple activity.i think it was fun and pple started finding good things abt themselves.hah!hope my class liked it.thanks joyce for the sharing too!anyway,i had violin lesson today too.wha.fingers are just dying.using it for guit,violin.wad else mans.tmw i got prac again.wha.my fingers are just gonna bleed very soon.ahwells.gonna go la.i got nothing much to blog about today anyway.my life's pretty boring without many things now.

let time do the magic.

tc.:)

hmmms.today i had a pretty interesting day.i mean like.ahwells.let me start from the beginning.i slept in aircon last night.couldnt take the heat man.wha.it felt really good.till i kinda didn't wanna wake up this morning.yeah.then i woke up,in the end.went to church,yeah.had sunday school and all that.had verse analysis today.a bit dry la.but then overall ok.with ad and ry.yeah.and paulie!haha!then we went for lunch.me,paul,ry,stella,weishieng.went to ps again.duh.where else can we go.yeah.went to macs.ate lunch le.we were laughing so much i tell you.then paul,ry and i went to spotlight to buy guan's present.wont say wad it is tho.haha!then we went arnd getting the present.had the funniest and most original idea mans.i'll say when she finally gets it.hehes.wont reveal anything at the moment.heh!then anyway.i got home by arnd 4.then jun msged to say he was bored.so we decided to play pool.but then couldnt get the table.so anyway,he went for his haircut,then drove over and we just chit chatted la.while walking arnd the estate.quite nice la.nicee stroll and just walking and talking.telling him abt musical then he was telling me abt army and all.jc...blahblah...yeah.then he went off,then i went to the courts for a while,played for a while,came home,yeah.ate dinner...played with beth for a while.walked with susu to the courts to see if they were still there.blogging now.yeah.and today's zhi's birthday.happy birthday zhi! may you always walk with God and trust in Him ya?well anyway,im gonna lead class chapel tmw.so gonna prepare now.

with hope,maybe,i could be happy again.

tc.:)

today was pretty fun i guess.it's saturday alr.so fast.time passes by.anyway,i couldn't get up this morning.i think i hardly slept last night.but anyway,i thought i was gonna be late for practice.cos i had to take a bus to school.so i just threw on my school u,packed everything into my guitar bag and just flew out of the house.luckily i caught the bus.if not i would have been even later.i tried to run up the hill,but then cos i just recovered,i just walked very fast.and i reached on time!well.not really.but then the audi wasnt open yet.so jas and i just sat outside playing guit.then when the audi was FINALLY open,we went in the set up.so messy i tell u.all the wires and everything.anyway,we had prac,learnt a super funny but cute song la.then,we went to holland v NYDC for lunch.wenfu treated us.haha!we were all gonna squeeze into his small audi i think,and it's a colour near pink.not really.but it's like bright red.so anyway,jas,hannah and i took a cab down.at NYDC we were like just eating and talking about all the musicals and stuff.super funny some of the experiences.yeah.then wenfu drove us back.those who lived in the west.came home.took medicine.slept for 3 hours.dreaming.woke up.lazed arnd.hung arnd in my room.listening to music.im not gonna be able to sleep tonight again.since i slept so long in the afternoon.it's so hot nowadays.drink more water ok?anyway,i'm gonna go now.gotta go and do something important for tmw.

only time will tell.

tc.:)

i went to school today.finally.after like 3 days.and boy, did i get a nice surprise when i got back.results.hah.thanks alot.all in one day.i failed two subs.again.physics and EMATH.HOW COULD ANYONE FAIL EMATH tell me!it's the most basic math.argh.i hate myself for that.physics was already a predicted fail.ah.i dun care anymore.i dun wanna study for the rest of my life.im gonna become a road sweeper or wadever.i worked so hard for those exams and i still can flunk.wad is wrong with me.argh.*mich is pulling out her hair* nothing is going right in my life for once.nothing at all.how come marks these days mean so much to me?i dunno.i used not to care.as long as i passed,even if i dint,as long as i told myself i did my best,that's it you know.but now it's like,i'll keep calculating and calculating.argh.i hate exams.i hate results.i hate everything.at least my L1R5 is like 23.ok la.at least it got cut by abt less than half from last year.and i thankfully i dint get any 8s or 9s.lowest is a 7.but still.how can i fail emath!i failed by like 4 marks.argh.anyway.let's talk happy stuff.i got B3 for chinese!haha!i was so shocked by my compo and compre.haha!so happy.i got 35/50 for my compo!siao rite.i dint even know wad i was writing about.writing nonsense.then my compre i got 25.5/30.well.that's only part of it la.i passed my chem.for once in my entire life,i passed chem.cos my prac pulled me up la.thank goodness for titration.i actually could do the mole qns.wow.i scored full marks for those i think.but who cares anyway.i still failed physics and emath.i cant go anywhere if i keep failing my math.okok.the rest of my results.i got B3 for chinese and combined geog.B4 for english.stupid compo.um,C5 for lit,C6 for chem.and yea,those D7s.
ahwells.i just got back from helping my neighbour clean up at his BBQ party.was super funny la.haha.anyway.i have got practice tmw for musical.my fingers are gonna die again.but they are pretty hard alr la.ahhh...heck.im gonna sleep everything off.i dun think i'll feel any better.but at least i wont think when i sleep.wont think about how many things have gone so terribly wrong these few weeks.and pray that things will start looking up.

"Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are"
-josh groban
to where you are

stoning.tc.:)

today i woke up late again.as usual.rolling out.dragging myself.i dint sleep as much today.cos tmw going to school alr.so i dun wanna sleep late.if not tmw i wont be able to wake up.ryan came over in the afternoon cos he and his frens came over the bug asriel about booking the bbq pit.so we sat at my doorstep for like 3-4 hours just playing guitar and talking.wha.talked to much.leant april showers toO!at least i had company today.thanks ry. :) hehes!i will prac the plucking.teach ad too.then 3 of us and play!haha!faithfully taking my medicine too.resting and drinking alot.till im like going to the toilet every so often.i think tmw i will die of a heart attack.all my results are coming back all at one time.praying very hard.today,before ry came over.i was just looking thru all my old letters that i had received over the past say 3 yrs or so.and i realised,after reading those little notes,and remembering the occassion,that a simple note,a msg,just to say hi,how u doing,and stuff,just brightens up a very grey day.and some letters were just so crap,and some,the longer ones,hold so much meaning.all because of those words.words can be sharper than a knife,and can paint a thousand pictures.words.are just so powerful.esp God's word.in my life.every word.

when i found you.

tc.:)

today i just slept and slept.sleep off the stewpid medicine.i dun care alr la.DUN CARE!about anything la.i just wanna sleep my life away la.i couldnt make it out of bed today uptil 11 or so.and i just rolled out again.i couldnt talk.nothing.just burning up.still am.but i dun care.im not running a temperature now.im not fighting.just losing.after waking up and eating breakfast and taking medicine again,i just went to put myself to sleep la.then slept,woke up.ate lunch.read books.slept again.woke up.watched tv.now blogging la.feeling so useless and pointless and crap.dunno why la.it's the sickness i guess.i dun even know why im blogging in the first place.argh.just gonna log off and sleep summore and hope i come down with a fever and not go to school again tmw la.i was just telling lala that i must as well come down with everything now then tmw dun need to go to school.since im alr down with something must as well have everything rite.feeling so crap and so sian now.my life is just so crap la.maybe it's just my day la.but it is anyway.im gonna stop here about my boring crapped life.just gonna sleep everything off now.

dreaming.

tc.:)

rarghh.i hate this.im really sick now.today in school i was half dead.im aching all over.everywhere.not just where im supposed to ache after tennis.it's all over.i trying not to fall asleep when going thru english paper.but i did for a while.argh.eye bags are really horrible.i got nearly no voice.no more energy to do anything alr.i came home from school,ate my lunch and just plonk myself onto my bed.and slept and slept.dad came in to wake me up for violin lesson.i couldnt take it.i wasnt feeling up to it at all.i couldnt even open my eyes.i just said i dint wanna go for violin lesson.i couldnt even talk man.like no voice alr.then i just carried on sleeping and sleeping all the way till 6.i slept like 3 hours.well.then i woke up.couldnt sleep anymore.just lay in bed for like about half an hour more or so.then tried to get out of bed.i just couldnt.head was so heavy like i've been swimming and drinking all the water and my brain was just one humongous coconut.so i just rolled out of bed literally,sat on the floor for a while more before really getting up and walking.it was like i havent walked in ages or something.argh.this sucks.back is aching like siao.then i watched tv.ate dinner.no appetite.drank like 3 cups of water so far.i cant do anything.argh.i just remembered that i have musical prac tmw.and we have chinese tmw.aiyarh.means tmw i will have to go la.my mum just gave me actifed.however u spell it.n efferversance.the vitamin thingy.this feels like when i was younger and had to go to the doc like every 3-4 wks cos i'd get sick every 3-4 wks.and like i'll to taking medicine the whole time and going on puffs and stuff.but those days are over.i grew out of taking zedi-ten everyday.and im glad i did.sigh.i think the medicine is gonna take it's effect very soon.and for once i hope.i'll be able to sleep thru the night.

maybe.just maybe.i hope.and pray.and trust.

tc.:)

today is sunday!!yay!but anyway.um.we had sunday sch.went to ps for lunch.yes.again.then um me,,zhi,lijun,glori,esther,dessie,sherman,paulie,ian,jiehui,we went to watch troy.did the stupidest thing la.we sat at row A.which is all the way in front.craning our necks to see everything.some ended up sitting on the floor.i stayed on the seat la.but everything just looked so big!i was like thinking that since when brad pitt got such big arms mans.and the dead pple looked super fake at some point of time.then yeah.it wasnt too bad.i wont say it was like super super extremely good.fantastic.but then it was ok la.i enjoyed it.then we hung arnd for a while.we were all so super stoned after the show.then came home.i fell asleep on the bus and nearly,nearly missed my stop.but anyway.came home,read for a while,then went to play tennis.wha.super good man.whacked everything that came my way.this is a good way to leave everything and just whack it away.yeah.james and uncle peter were teaching me how to topspin the balls.well,i must prac that.must get it right.spin spin spin!!!but now my hand is totally rough and everything.i think i have to change my grip or something.james!u have a very nice racket!
i dunno how im gonna get thru the week.i got this horrible throat now.it's all itchy and everything.i think im coming down with flu or something.and my nose.it just runs and runs.then my eyes tear and tear like crazy.arhhh.i dun wanna get sick.not now la.my nose is like super irritating la.arh.i hate it when it's like that.it's like in between of being sick and not.i hate that feeling that when i lie down and try to sleep,i cant breathe.cos my nose gets stuck and all.arh.dun fall sick plsplspls.and then the cough is dry.like got phlegm but no phelgm.no it's not sars.sheesh.hate being sick.bah.

nothing can change the way i feel.

tc.:)

feeling kinda refreshed now after the worship.hmmms.i dint sleep till pretty late yesterday.wad time also i dunno.just noe i woke up at like 6.30.then dint sleep again till 7+ .then woke up at 8.then couldn't sleep again.anyway,my mum came in to disturb me.and JUST told me i got dental at 10 and i have to take a bus down by myself.aiyarh.i thot i had to rush.then anyway.i took a LONG time to get out of bed la.i drag my self every morning cos i just wanna sleep and dream summore.since it's so hard for me to get to sleep.but anyway.i got out of bed after like half an hour or so.reluctantly.ate a few strands of noodles and drank some juice.read the papers.all of it.not just the life section.changed.got out of the house.then halfway to the bus stop i realised that i forgot to bring my retainers.ran all the way back home.then ran to the bus stop again.luckily the bus came fast.if not sure late.i was alr 5 mins late.hah.then saw the at park mall for only about 10 mins.then left for home again.can u imagine the time taken to go there and go back.and how long do i spend there only.anyway.got back home.lazed arnd.then took a bath.got ready to go to ps.i was gonna be late alr.then my mum stopped me to say they'll send me.then sent me to little india mrt.so i had to take nel there.i saw amos there with a bunch of girls.woohoo!haha!jkjk.then went to meet reags,walked arnd in ps for a while.finding present.then we went to church.
today.i encountered jesus.worship and the message was really meaningful and good today.whenever anyone is broken.God will pick up each and every single piece and place them back together.i've learnt to trust God.but to put it into action wld be hard.but with God's help.i can do it.and learn to trust everything to God.knowing that He has a plan for me.
then,had snacks before dinner.then jiehui,reags,amos and i went to next door coffee shop for dinner.shared horfun cos not very hungry.heh.then amos came with me help me flag cab!thankie amos!sho sweet!then got a cab.went to lavender there to go and see mum dance for her exam.just stood arnd watching la.some of them were really good.really really good.aiyarh.but i was so super bored there lor.then came home.and now im here.blogging yet again...
hmmms.i've been getting alot of eyebags and pimples.sigh.must try to get rid of them.eyebags wld be hard.but i think pimples can la.haha.and i tried to play guit this afternoon too when i got back.i couldn't even press a single string.i cld for a while only.then after that my fingers started cramming up and then the tips hurt so much.so i guess i wont be playing for sometime.i hope not.cos i have to be able to play by next tues!argh.and i got violin on monday.die.cannot feel again.ok.nvrmind.wadever.this is the song i like now.

'fly' by jars of clay.
be still
let your hand melt into mine
the part of me that breathes when you breathe is losing time
i can't find the words to say
i'll never say goodbye
CHORUS:
and i'll fly with you through the night
so you know i'm not letting go
i'm not letting go
my tears like rain fill up the sky
oh, my love, i'm not letting go
i won't let you go
i saw the host of silent angels waiting on their own
knowing that all the promises of faith
come alive when you see home
hold still and let your hand melt into mine
[CHORUS]
shed your heart and your breath and your pain and fly
now you're alive
now you're alive
now you're alive
now you're alive
i won't let you go
i'm not letting go
i won't let you go
i'm not letting go
i won't let you go

just like this song.nice tune.nice lyrics.

im still hoping,praying.but im trusting too.

tc.:)

hmmms.let me think.what did i do today.i realised that i spend so much time blogging.i dunno.it's so unlike last time.i wld spend my nights on the phone.or just waiting.rather than waste my time on the computer.today,we had first musical prac after exams.it was ok la.i mean like we took some time to warm up before we remembered everything.hah.we've got like 10 more songs to learn.and we've only got 2 down.not out of the 10.mans.so many.so now, my fingers nerves are all dead.all dead.skins peeled.i cant feel anything there alr.not that it matters la.nerves do grow back.yeah.then called in macs for lunch.tell u.wenfu has so many funny experiences.sit at the table eat and laugh.then went back to playing again.then i came home.sat arnd.did nothing.slept.woke up by some phone call.played guitar again.killed more nerves.ate.killed somemore nerves and then.here i am.blogging.again.yeah.ting dint call.ting.call me next wk fri then.nothing much la.that's pretty much my life.

i've done it all.i've done it all.nothing else i can do.

tc.:)

today was the very last last last last last of my papers.forever!mid year exams are OVER IN MY LIFE!hah!i think.i hope.ahwells.anyway,the chinese listening is so super long winded la.talk talk talk so long until i dun even know which story they are at.then all the answers were all so close.like they all mean the same thing.sheesh.then anyway.it was over!then i went home first.at like 9 in the morning.felt so good to be home.then i left my house at about 10.for orchard.when i reached orchard,i walked to taka,wisma,then walked back to borders.in taka i went to kino,wisma just walk walk.aiyarh,just imagine this poor lonely soul walking around by herself can already la.yeah.then i just went to borders.bore myself down there.looking at cds.looking at books.pretty interesting la.that's how i killed about 2 hours plus in orchard by myself.ok.but now i wont feel so bad going myself if i have to.hope i dun have to la.then went to marche for class lunch.super funny.playing passing the message down the two sides of the table.super funnny!haha!yeah.then like half the pple went off.the other half just sat there talk crap and take stupid photos!haha!then some went to watch troy or shop.then joyce,ivin,lala and i went to take neoprint at cine after walking heeren for a while.there very boring la.then the neoprint shop at cine,we dint understand a single word on the stupid machine.so we totally screwed up all our neoprints la.but it was super funny cos we were panicking like siao cos the time limit.haha!anyway,then we went to bowl at cine.the whole of mgs was at cine lor.met so many pple.ivin and i bowled two games.lala bowled one.yeah.but my thumb was so painful the moment i started bowling.cos of peeling.yeah.ivin is so pro at bowling lor!wha.so many strikes and spares.i kept saying tyco only la.haha!she kept wanting to kill me.we had so much fun being stupid on the lanes.i went to the lane and pushed one ball.haha!a heavy one.it went so slow.and then went longang summore.wasted one frame.ivin!all your fault.anyway,yeah.then went to meet sheryl,jan and grace after their troy.gushing all about it.then ivin and i kept going on about our bowling on purpose.haha!ya la.that's my day.had fun.ahwells.

cos i can't forget.

tc.:)

YAY!last paper today.wha.shuang.after that i took a 171 to go and meet ad and some of his frens for bball with tee also.there was ad,joel,mark,alaric,reagan,ryan,tee and i.nice meeting u guys.haha.had alot of fun playing bball on a wet court.so funny also.yeah.got a good work out and all.then we went to js for lunch.or rather went there so that ad and joel could have lunch.before that we went looking for jerry.but then the ops person there stopped us and said 'i noe you guys are old boys but then cannot walk arnd' haha!i passed off as a guy eh.haha!anyway,then we just sat in the canteen crapping.by then ry and tee had left le.yeah talk talk talk...then we waited for mark's mum to come.talking about cars then.mans.the amount that these guys noe about cars.is amazing.yeah.but anyway.then ad and joel left.alaric,reagan and i went to waffletown for lunch.we sat there for how long leh?i also dunno.3 hrs?yeah.talking rubbish.eh,they are not bad leh.they can solve the albatross and the old man and car riddle pretty fast.not bad,not bad.then we left,finally.but it was fun getting to noe u guys.dun forget to come on sat ewj!haha!4 pm hor...hope to see u there!tc till then! :)

i realised something.

absence,does make the heart grow fonder.it really does.

tc.:)

chinese.im pretty dead.i dint noe three of the 'kongs'.and then im not sure of one.and then my answers were so full of crap.yupper.tmw is lit!and then it'll be ALL over.but then got prelims.ok.forget those.forget everything.i just wanna finish this.then think abt the rest later.arhhh...so frustrating.today,i fell off my chair.i dunno how i missed sitting on it.but yeah.i just did.then i just sat there thinking for a while.yeah.call me a loser.i can fall off my chair like 4 times in a row as some of u would remember in MM.4 times.how loser can i get.then i can laugh till i knock my head on the chair.and have it so bruised.and i still can laugh.well.ok.at least im still laughing.

but im not laughing now.
i fall and fall.
i fail and fail.
and i still cant laugh.
cos i cant forget.

ok.tc guys. :)
tmw and the day after that,and the day after that,and the day after that...freedom.for once. :)

today was pretty slack.
i just studied my chinese la.duh.tmw is cheena.sigh.
aiyarh.i dunno la.everything seems to be going wrong.i hope everything will start lightening up again.
it's not the kind of lifestyle i wanna live cos it's so irritating.everything just goes wrong when u least want it to.sigh.
wad to do.anyway.i'll blog again soon.
tc. :)

today was pretty slack.
i just studied my chinese la.duh.tmw is cheena.sigh.
aiyarh.i dunno la.everything seems to be going wrong.i hope everything will start lightening up again.
it's not the kind of lifestyle i wanna live cos it's so irritating.everything just goes wrong when u least want it to.sigh.
wad to do.anyway.i'll blog again soon.
tc. :)

i have done all i can.said all i think i can.expressed everything i can.in words.which mean alot to me.im just waiting for wad u say.

i like this song from toy story 2.
"when somebody loved me,everything was beautiful.all the hours we spent together,lives within my heart."
the title is "when somebody loved me" sung by sarah mchalaren.um.i cant spell her name.but i love that part of the song.

anyway,two more papers to go.chinese and lit.two not so killer.then like after that is listening.dun need to study one.just go and dig ears and make sure can hear properly.heh.hmmms,today,went with zhi,ry,amos,jun,xx,jiehui,christine,bel for lunch.at...where else,PS.went to longjohns.then we were like telling jokes and things.but then like i laughed.but it was so forced.it's like i cant be happy again.yeah.then went to walk walk.kept quiet most of the time and just talked for a while i guess.then i watched them play arcade.watched.just watched.time crisis.we were really taking our time like crazy.like there was all the time in the world.yeah.then went to buy flowers for christine's mum.then went off.took a bus,dropped at a familiar place.7-11,just walking arnd there brings back memories.then i walked all the way back thru toh tuck rd thru the main gate,pretty long way.but nice walk to think.quiet and still.just cars going by.u could just keep out all the sound and think.i drank slurpee on the way back.so cold.then i got back.just sat in my room and listened to natalie cole.nice jazz and read my book.scorpia.wha.alex rider is so cool.anyway,played tennis after that.played like some maniac.well.not really.but helped me to get away.put all my stuff into the tennis balls and hit them away.then i went for my walk.i couldnt help it even tho i was like alr dying after the games.my dad was still playing.not bad,these older pple have stamina.anyway,the sky was so beautiful and clear today.i couldnt help myself.the stars just brought me to where i used to sit and talk.just sit there and share my day.memories came flooding back as i sat there.i managed to spot orion and sirus.the stars,the sky,just the environment,it's just something so precious.memories,as well as,it's nature.God made it all for all of us.and ahwells.the sky was just so pretty tonight.i hope u saw it too.stars.mean so much.to me.i hope they do to you too.

anyway,i gotta get off now.took so long just to blog.u guys take care.
:)

i have one last shot at it.and after that.im not sure how things will turn out.i hope for the better.i cant live.

paper today was quite horrible.emath.wad can i say?it's math.which i cant do for peanuts nuts,almond nuts,macademia,acorn.wadever nuts.i cant do it for anything.the questions were all so long!and then we had to do so many!where got time!sigh.i hope it still turns out ok.and i hope i get anything less than twentypoints.is that too much to ask?i studied my pants off for all my subs.ok.make it twentyfive.and then lit.i totally crapped and talked nonsense abt the themes.appearance vs. reality.oh boy,that's something i can really talk about.happy.sad.sad.happy.
hal being reformed.
'yet herein i will imitate the sun,who doth permit the base contagious clouds'
hal's soliloquay.
and then blahblahblah about hotspur and falstaff and hal and henry.
blahblahblah.
chinese and lit ppr2.that's all.hanging by skin of my baby finger.
but im not letting go.not yet.hanging on...

i know that God has a wonderful plan for me and you.:)

hey.back again.
tmw is emath.im prepared.for once.armed with construction sets and formulaes in mind.im gonna walk into the exam hall.prepared to fight the battle.and hope i pass.
i already lost anyway.
well.just be happy.
:)

sigh.major exams all over.im gonna spend the weekend doing chinese.chinese.oh mans.four yrs of chinese.sigh.all going into my small brainless brain during the weekend.im so sore from doing stupid things to myself.not on purpose.by the many accident prones things i do.thinking too much i guess.physics was bad.chem was better.maybe i understand chem much more now.somehow or the other.and i could actually do the math paper and just go blank like that.that's great.yeah.happy.haha.happy.somethings that u see is not actually wad it is.
anyway.u guys take care.and i'll blog again soon.
:)

short one this time.
moon.i just want u to be happy.that's all.happy.
amos!thanks for the verses.hehes.faith like a child buddy.
ad.porcelain monument in the bathroom yeah?and the whales with the waves.right.cheer me up with crap all the time.
ry.thanks for being rationale with me.hehs.
paulie!we've got the same things going on sometimes eh.
leeway.overseas fren.and always in contact.
ok.will come back again tmw ya.
everything seems to be going wrong again.did the stupidest things today.i slammed my chem text onto my baby finger.and also left my whole lot of chem stuff in my fren's car.smart.so studying properly was tuff without everything condensed.sigh.

haha.i dun believe it.i have a chemistry exam,tmw,and mind u,chem is my worst,and im still blogging.michelle!wad is wrong with u.i just have this urge to blog and type something.something.things are still not fixed in my life.everything has never been has it.nothing is fixed.well,ok,i mean like besides that God has a plan for me.but everything just seems to go wrong.terribly wrong.but it's God's plan.so trust Him and all will work out.and all things also work for the good of those who love Him.thanks crystal.really encouraging before i sat for my geog paper.hehs.:)
and,i am dead for physics.ahwells.i did like nearly my whole tys alr.mcq only la.but then still.i think i'll do it again.and emath.there goes my a.i think i'll settle for a b this time arnd.
ook.i have to go and take a peep at my chem stuff so that i can sleep on it.nite pple.take care.:)

ok.it's exam time.and im blogging.sigh.i did the stupidest things today.like really.i slammed the door into my foot.so now the top of my toe is bleeding like crazy.it hurts bad.real bad.and my eyes are like itchy.and u noe when i cough.it's dry.but i got alot mucus.but no phlegm.amazing.so my throat is hurting bad.whoopee.
do u get days when everything is not supposed to go wrong,but it just does.murphy's law eh.ahwells.wads done is done.i cant turn back time and change how i did everything.i wish i could.i would have done so many things differently.but life never goes the way u want it to.
ahwells.wad to do.it's life.and
life goes on.but it wont for some time.short period.till everything blows over.
ok.gotta zhao.all the best for exams you guys. :)

wow.i managed to find out how to blog.amazing eh.i dint even noe to do it lor.ryan did most of the stuffies for me.haha!yay!ryan!i want a tagboard!anyway.welcome to my new blog.i am blogging right in the midst of EXAMS.cos i got nothing better to do.yes,meaning i dun wanna study anymore!sigh...anyway.will be shifting here ok?
good.see u!